Yesterday was my 25th birthday. I put one candle on my cake and started my life over or at least tried. I am going to get through this. i refuse to let this ruin my life. i am sweet, i am pretty, i am smart, i am sexy, and somebody will love me. i will be able to return that love. i will not be bitter. i will not lay down and die. and like ( Read more... )

i have made several decisions. about time i took some initiative. of course i may wake up in the morning and completely lose my resolve. i am going to divorce my husband. the last thing he said to me was that he loves me but he doesn't want me. i can feel secure in the knowledge that i have tried everything possible to save this marriage. i ( Read more... )

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i think i like pixy stix so much because of their name. it is incredibly difficult to be sad when eating pixy stix. i am attempting it right now. i just drank my first strawberry daquiri and promptly threw up. i don't think drinking is for me. i am unpleasantly dizzy from this one pansy drink. my husband hates me, my friends hate me, my ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder about myself. I am supposed to be trying to get my husband back and yet I slept with another man this afternoon. That makes 4 guys within the last 2 weeks. I don't even know who I am anymore. The guy I am seeing right now is an alcoholic with the capacity to be abusive and we have a rocky history. It seems to me that if I ( Read more... )