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a world of illusion and imagination
I often find myself yearning to immerse myself in fantasy, in fiction, imagination. I tend to pretend that I am a character in the books and stories that I read, that I am in their world rather than this reality I am in. I wanna be away from all of the problems that I have to face, all the fake people and struggles I have now.
If only..
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soon..
i can't wait to get out of this pit..
as i always say, change is coming.. as inevitable as it is..
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2014: a look back
as always, i usually end the year with this mandatory year-end blog.. 2014 has been the best year of my life so far.. i have been blessed with many things, people and opportunities alike.. and before this year ends, i wanna take a look back to what transpired during these past 12 months ( Read more... ) -
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i should have been more careful. i should have been numb.
i thought that i don't care anymore. that's the problem, i just thought that i am.
it hurts to be an outcast. it hurts that i still care.
when i thought i had friends, turns out i had none.
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2013 year ender
december 31. it's the last day of 2013. i think it's just apt that i get the chance to look back on the year that was ( Read more... ) -
in solitude
i have this constant need and want to be accepted and be liked that i fail to realize that i cannot please everyone. i am afraid to be alone yet i always find myself in solitude. it seems like everything i do is never enough for them. i find myself outside the clique yet again, thrown out by the people whom i thought accepted and understood me. i ( Read more... ) -
just look outside the window and find peace
i caught myself just looking at the window by the nicu viewing hallway yesterday and was surprised to find some peace. i mean, i could stare on the grounds outside all day and won't get bored. back when i was in highschool, i remember doing the same thing, though i have a much better view then, from the 4th floor end corridor of the new hs building ( Read more... ) -
countdown to the 26th
let's make one thing clear, i never asked for this. looking back one year ago, i would have laughed at you if you told me that i would be in this position now. in fact, i would have envisioned myself to be far away from that place. i didn't expect that i would be having this responsibility so soon ( Read more... ) -
hoping
i don't this to have this kind of life forever. please, Lord, let there be an opening. take me out of this place soon!!!
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the answer
i think i finally have my answer, i choose to stay here with them. i choose to be here. i choose my family.
we never know what may happen in the future, i want to be here with them.
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