Where should I begin? How about where I am now. I've grown quite close to my sister since our mother has become a bit more observant of what we are doing in the backyard, coming back in with red eyes, possibly smelling like Mary Jane, and when is it my girlfriend and I want to lock ourselves up in my room with Tarek, Karla, and my roommate? ( Read more... )

I'm at that time again, where a process of elimination must occur. Destroy links to suffering to bond a new life by uncertainty. Can I trust my new friends? Can I keep the ones who supposedly say they're there for me, which in reality, they're busy with their lives. I'm not blaming them. But I can't expect anyone to relate to someone no one ( Read more... )

I'm losing all means of truth in my life, finding out the lies that have sugar coded over my mind to keep me from the truth. The friend I need most I lost thanks to some punk with a grudge. It's bad enough losing the one, but now losing you're only true friend, the only one you can be truthful with everything, with the listening will of God... This ( Read more... )

Saturday was a great day for me. I spent early afternoon with Harold, Mel, and her family.  Despite all the discomfort Harold had about me, we got along. Well enough for him to share something I hear from everyone lately. And what he told me,  threw me back into memory lane. It seems things are not clear. It seems things are meant to point one ( Read more... )

Things have improved strongly between Clovis and I. Couldn't be any better. Her open mind to grow with my experience is starting to connect with the puzzle life has placed us in...in lame terms, let the chips fall where they may. Going with the flow is the best way for us. But gaining this calm, meant the storm was about to strike. My family were ( Read more... )

It has been a long time, and I thought my journal was lost during my absence. The hybrids have been trying to find me, and almost succeeded.  My old lair was laid to ruins, but I manage to kill their numbers by trapping a majority of their army inside my home as it caved in. Rose warned me that faithful night of October 16, "Max, if you wish not to ( Read more... )

I came across a path I failed to take because I believed there was no hope. My girlfriend and I were forcefully broken up by her family because her brother couldn't respect her privacy, and went ahead to read her text messages. What perfect timing because it was after her ring ceremony that we started seeing that there was something wrong with my ( Read more... )

The ulitimate feeling, the ultimate train of thought, but the ultimate addiction. It's looked down upon, it's despised, as if it was a terrifying being. Their right, it is a terrifying being, one that controls you. It controls me, and I hate it more than I love it. It's like a relationship you want to keep trying for, but you know it will never ( Read more... )

I prevented further heartache by staying away, to observe. Though my emotions are still there for one, I let myself observe another due to similarities well matched. But there was one flaw. What I felt through one kiss was something, but it happened for the wrong reasons. I knew, that if I were to start something with the one I observed, if she ( Read more... )

These feelings have been dormenting inside me for so long, that a hint of something similiar will be recognized. But I had not felt these feelings in about a year. I've made myself alone, to search myself as a person, and find out who am I, and learn how to love myself before I can say I'm strong enough to love someone else again, just as a ( Read more... )