Lately, I've felt just so incredibly lonely; ridiculously lonely, where I've sat up at night crying because I feel so alone. I generally feel better during the day, but I find myself unable to relate to my friends; I feel like since starting my new job, I just don't fit in anymore. I still like them as people, but I find myself feeling more ( Read more... )

I've been off work today, sick with a real bad cold - well, I think it's a cold, maybe the start of flu, seeing as I'm not usually so achey with colds. But hopefully I'll feel better enough to go back tomorrow, we'll see ( Read more... )

I know self-control is meant to be one of the defining features between man and beast, but some days I do envy those creatures who are allowed to act on their anger. I wonder if it really is possible to get an ulcer from not acting on my stress and just keeping it all in...I hope not, else I'm well on my way to developing a huge one ( Read more... )

It's funny how life makes you forget what you say you will do, and then when you remember what you forgot, you don't know why you forgot ( Read more... )

Wowww, it's been way too long since I last posted here; I hate that my last previous entry was one which documented a sad part of my life, but I'm going to try and post more often now. I doubt anyone reads my LJ, but I like the relaxing effect it has, in typing about my thoughts and feelings ( Read more... )

Ben broke up with me - I can't believe it. I feel broken too - never thought that such pain could exist....

Oh deary me, been working so hard these past few weeks; I'm hoping that after handing in my dissertation, that I can go home and visit Ben for a few days - fingers crossed it's do-able, I'll talk to Jamie tomorrow. I think it's a reasonable request and especially seeing as most of my friends I know are going ABROAD as a treat ( Read more... )

Yes, so this bank holiday weekend saw me and a group of friends (AND BEN!!!) go to North Wales, to camp in Snowdon. Well, the camping was...ok, the camping itself, the whole sleeping in a tent and such was ok - I can cope with that. But the weather was just atrocious! Constant wind and rain, and always very grey days. How can anyone live in a place ( Read more... )

It's hard to stay optimistic these days; as usual (and as is the case for most people I'm sure), my life is dictated by money. I am in a job that becomes less enjoyable by the day but cannot leave because I cannot afford to. I find that I am nearly in tears most days because I am so tired and stressed about money and about my uni work. I want to ( Read more... )

Well, I'm managing to remember my pledge of updating every week or so ( Read more... )