And I want to know my fate
If I keep up this way.
And it's hard to want to stay awake,
When everyone you need, they all seem to be asleep.
And you wonder if you missed your dream.
You can't see a dream
You can't see a dream.
You just can't see a dream.

i don't really have anything to write about, it's just that i'm spending the night at ryan's but i'm up here in his room and he's all the way downstairs on the couch with eviebaby. he's such a good boyfriend for letting me have his big, comfortable bed. i'm so buzzed and in love and happy right now. i've started to be proactive about my happiness ( Read more... )

i really wish there were more night owls like me. or really, i wish i would fall into some regular sleep habits. but when i think about sleeping, it just feels like such a waste of time! laying in bed for hours and hours and houurrrssss when you could be awake. awake and alive ( Read more... )

i wish i knew when we began that it would end up like this. he wasn't supposed to mean anything. he wasn't supposed to mean anything more than blood rush and cheeck flush in the backseat of a caprice. we were a random couple and he was just supposed to be a random guy. a random guy to get over another random guy. a random guy who wouldn't matter ( Read more... )

i'm not sure how i decided to write in this after two years of swearing it off. i think it's the spirit of the new year, the idea of a fresh start. one of the things i told myself i would try to do (but not resolve to do because i always fail at resolutions) is to feel. this probably sounds strange and i don't know if i can even explain it. i mean ( Read more... )

( the summer sends its love to you )

i can't believe it's summer. it's felt like it's been such a long year, but at the same time, it's gone by in a heartbeat. a lot of things have changed; i've changed. and so many things have happened that i don't even know if the me last summer would recognize the me right now. is that a bad thing? however unsure of myself i am, i'm lucky that i ( Read more... )

I've been feeling weird lately. Summer's here and I feel like everything's changed. I feel like I've changed. I don't know if it's for better or for worse, but I'm going to try to stay optimistic. Because the truth is, ( I'M REALLY LUCKY, )

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i didn't think lows got any lower. i didn't think i could be such a shitty person. i didn't think there were things that the sun and bright skies couldn't fix. i want fucking out of this. i want out of this town and away from these people. i want to feel something that doesn't make me want to vomit. i'm so sick of feeling like shit, and being ( Read more... )