Well, here I am... back from the dead.

No body read this before I disappeared and I really doubt anyone will now, but for good measure...

I have some exciting news.

I am about 3 months away from being a mommy... to a little boy...

We call him Noah.

And so starts a new chapter in my novel...

Let's see what comes of my story this time around. :

woot woot.

cant wait to move into my new apartment.

so long and thanks for all the fish.

Jeremy and I got our apartment! We move in on the 1st and we're planning a party! woot woot.

alrighty that is all for now. lol

Wow. It's been forever since I last wrote in this thing. I guess theres going to be a lot to catch up on. I'm not really sure if anyone ever reads these, but oh well ( Read more... )

Today I got lectured for about an hour, on how I need to start treating people differently. I am a generally nice person, but if someone messes with me, I'll give them hell back. What I dont understang, though, is why someone else felt the need to tell me how to treat people THEY dont even like. So, it got me thinking... (oh no, famous last words ( Read more... )

apparently...im nothing more than a whore.

I've been at it again. All this thinking and analysing cant be good for me or anyone else. I overthink things, make them too dramatic. I know what I want, I've always known. And it's not hard to pick out what that thing is, but I have no clue how to find it, accomplish it. And thats the scariest part. I know that patience is the key... I know I ( Read more... )

As many times as I wish I had something good to say in any of these entries, I never have ever had one good thing to say. Today was a little bit of depression, mixed with a little excitement and then some more pathetic depression. I need something to fix me. I need a miracle. Forgetting the stupid problems for today, I've been doing a lot of ( Read more... )

Sometimes I cant breath. Sometimes my lungs feel like they're collapsing from all the stress. Today, this week, no different. In more than a few words, I've moved on. Adam is no longer the only name clinging to my lips. He pulses through my blood day and night, my mind surrounds itself in his face, but I have more than moved on from what I was ( Read more... )

How many times can one person lie and continue saying their fine? He did a little more damage than I give him credit for. It's been a week to the day since he left. I've talked to him once since then and it was right around the time I thought I was starting to feel better about the entire sitaution. So, needless to say, it was a horrible idea ( Read more... )