So I been stuck in my parents house for like a week now, and I'm so fucking tired of them Im about to run the fuck away. I just wish they would stop and understand instead of assuming I am at the root of all my own problems ( Read more... )

If you can't count on your family to understand then who can you count on?

So thursday night I was drinkin with Megan, and I dont remember many of the detail but I end up in jail on a DUI charge. I was drunk, and I was driving, so I can't argue, but all I can hope for is a good lawyer and a reduced sentence (maybe a plea bargain I dont know). That whole court date isn't til' May 9th which gives me plenty of time to get ( Read more... )

It comes full circle every time. It's as if the force that moves this world and all its subtle changes knows I'm watching and lets me remember but, I do know that the farther I stare into the abyss the farther it stares into me. I push forward and keep my head high now, but times always come when my neck is tired from holding such a big head (not ( Read more... )

So I went to oak ridge with dick, but we weren't able to bring Amy for some reason. I think my minor laps has frightened her more than I thought.. She stay in murfreesboro and worked... We went to Knoxville and got messed up and watched drunkards pass out. I tried something I never have before, and I have to admit thought it was pretty fun, but ( Read more... )

So I hung with Amy, Dick, and Revis last night. Good times, drink, smokin. I told Amy that I wanted to ask/tell her something and I'm pretty sure I sparked her interest. Now, Today I plan on driving to oak ridge with Dick and were prolly gonna do some fun stuff in his town, so yeh. Wish me lunch.

Today I went to both classes, the 8am and the 2:40pm class...I actually left the later a little early. I left with Megan, a girl I know from high school...I think I may have mentioned her in earlier posts, but I wasnt so, lets say, sober...I went over to her place, hung out for a little while, watched some tv, ate some pizza. While I was there I ( Read more... )

Last night I had a good panic attack. I was thinking about Amy, and Dick, and I just started asking myself why I chose to not hang with them anymore, and I thought about the good times, and the better times, and how much I love them both. While I was crying I said "they were my heart and soul, and I cut them out and threw them away..." I cant go ( Read more... )

I am feeling very depressed right now, and I think it's because its so late and I just woke up, but I also feel a depression over Amy....I helped her get an 8th yesterday, but I missed her when she came to pick it up because I got suckered into takin Roy to his car....I tried to call her later after I had taken a nap but no answer. I think I ( Read more... )

So yeh right after mc chris, I got a speeding ticket on 24...I cant say shit, I was doin' 101 in a 70, so I'm either paying $215 or showing up at some court date, but I dont know what they'll do at the court date. I am stupid and need to learn to slow down and relax when I drive...I guess I shouldnt play so many racing video games. So, I guess ( Read more... )