I probably won't update this anymore. I know, I know, I've had it for only like 2 days. But, you see, I get bored easily. So, if you want to check out my new blog, it's at http://babz-bear.tripod.com/blog/ I should have a main page up eventually too... so... yea. Woohoo! lol See ya ( Read more... )

Great. I totally killed all the progress I've made, because I had the intelligent idea to go through the fucking box of things that I know are painful memories... then I have the even brighter idea to ask Shadow the list of questions on the heart paper. You know, the one with the question about one of the words that I hate. So now I'm back to where ( Read more... )

Dear Michael ( Read more... )

Things with Shadow are totally fixed, at least for the time being... he totally catered to me. Of course I helped him out too, but it was just nice to have the attention again. He's so amazing :) And still afraid of Nina, lol. Well I don't really have that much to say here so I guess that's about it for now... might write more later ( Read more... )

Been a few days, I think. I've been busy making Xanga layouts, but I'm kind of weirded on that one right now since no one seems to even look at my Xanga anymore except Whitney and Nina, and Nina only looks when I tell her there's something new. But... I don't know. I'm trying to stay happy, or at least fake it. Things really are good, I know. I ( Read more... )

Today I looked in one of my quiz books, and found the page where Michael wrote "Why is this page blank?" Instead of flipping out like the old me would've done, I sat down and found a pen and wrote back ( Read more... )

Was depressed a little bit towards the end of yesterday because I started thinking about how I hadn't talked to Shadow and wasn't sure why... didn't bug me too much until something popped into my head about not being sure that he was all right. But, Nina did me a favor and called him... he called her back this morning and said everything was all ( Read more... )

The first day of my attempt at the vegetarian thing. So far today I ate a glass of V8 (I rarely drink it and I probably should, since I don't usually get my vegetables in there like I'm supposed to) and a veggie burger. It was good, too... a Boca cheeseburger on a white bun with cranberry mustard, because I love that stuff. It's so yummy. So, yeah ( Read more... )

Stole this from ben_pop_n_fresh:

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Name: Barbara-Michelle
Birth date: May 11, 1990
Birthplace: Stockton, Cali
Current Location: Reno, Nevada
Eye Color: Hazel
Hair Color: Dr. Pepper Can colored
Height: 5'2"
Righty or Lefty: Right
Zodiac Sign: Taurus

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Your heritage: French, Dutch, Irish, and Cherokee
Shoes you wore today: None!
Your fears: ( Read more... )

x I wish I was happy like I used to be.
-- That's the reasoning behind this journal in the first place.
o I wish Shadow and I lived (closer) together
-- I have almost enough money to go out and see him, but I'm not allowed to
x I wish "forever" didn't break my heart
-- I'm working on that one too
o I wish I wasn't terrified at the thought of ( Read more... )