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Financial Planning
Group therapy is really good, but the emotions that it brings up are too intense for me to be able to take courses this term. I'll write more about therapy later, but this post is more about financials, and the practical concerns surrounding them ( Read more... ) -
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I don't know what to do. I can't take these courses, I don't even need one of them, I don't know what I want to do with my life. I feel so lost, so overwhelmed, I just can't do this. No matter what I do, I lose. -
sleepy/busy
I am tired. Tomorrow and Sunday I am taking a first aid course. My boyfriend bought another gecko -- I don't want this to get out of control (it's only 2 at this point, but it's two in the space of a month, and there are more that he wants, and he has debts he's supposed to be paying off. I'm trying to be better about what I eat, and I'm trying ( Read more... ) -
technology troubles
My computer is not running properly, and I'm concerned that it may be very close to dying. I can't really afford a new one, but it's very close to my birthday, so perhaps I can convince my parents to help me out with that by giving me some money. First I will see what I can do about getting this computer fixed, but it's a four-year-old laptop, ( Read more... ) -
Making myself write
So, here I am, finally writing something. A few things have been resolved -- major things. It feels somehow easier to write about things that are resolved, when the things that I'm writing about actually make sense and aren't just big confusing contradictions ( Read more... ) -
Why is this so hard?
So, as you may have noticed (if you haven't given up on me entirely), I did not post when I said I would. Why is it so hard for me to write here? Because here, I not only feel that I need to tell the truth, I feel that I need to tell the whole truth. I don't want to do that most of the time. Lately it terrifies me. Anyway, I've decided that ( Read more... ) -
checking in
I have been MIA, as you may have noticed. Somehow even when I'm pretending things are okay to my friends and family, even convincing myself, I can't lie here -- and so I was silent, for almost four months. I have come to some huge realisations. They were hard to accept. I have to go to work at the moment, but I think that writing about this ( Read more... ) -
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The floor is in. They started early, so I didn't get to paint. Sunday we pack everything, and monday I supervise the moving guys. I've been doing therapy at the Women's Sexual Assault Centre. I decided to go finally -- first they lost my file, and then I had a combination of losing interest and knowing that I didn't have the time or energy to ( Read more... ) -
thankful for small things
The new floor was approved, it goes in on the 19th-21st I think. On monday I am going to paint my room blue -- it will match my not-finished-yet quilt, and I will be happy. My sunrise alarm clock arrived, I'm using it to wake me up tomorow -- a good day to experiment because I don't work until noon, so if I sleep in it won't be a problem ( Read more... ) -
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Tomorrow morning we find out whether the strata council at the new condo will let us replace the flooring. I really hope so given that we've already taken off all the baseboards ;) I want to paint my room. Desperately. And given how much easier it would be before the furniture is in, and also before the floor is in, I might see if I can coerce ( Read more... )