-
syndrome!
So, apparently back when I went to get tested to see if I have chronic fatigue syndrome, and they never got back to me so I figured I didn't have it -- they were supposed to get back to me but somehow it got missed. I've officially had chronic fatigue for over a year, and no one bothered to tell me. The main problem, from what I've been able to ( Read more... ) -
bad mood & rant
So I was having a really god conversation today, but it sort of went wrong when relationships came up. I don't like talking about past realtionships, it makes me angry. I've never had a good relationship. I've never dated someone that I don't regret dating. That's just the way it is. I had low self esteem, and consequently I attracted jerks. ( Read more... ) -
sick again
So, I have another yeast infection, and either a bacterial infection or else strep again on top of it. Currently they have me treating for all three, although they'll call and have me stop the antibodies in a couple days if the results come back saying it's not baterial. I am in so much discomfort. After going to the Dr this morning I was too ( Read more... ) -
weird
I think, back in October, I met the wrong dyslexic guy named Colin. -
a day
I wrote a letter to Colin telling him my side of what went wrong in our relationship. He wrote back defending himself. I wrote again, undercutting all of his defenses, informed him that I wouldn't read any reply he sent, and then to make sure I don't, blocked his e-mails. I feel surprisingly good. Usually I don't say everything that I need to ( Read more... ) -
anger
So I let Colin convince me to give him another chance. Since he got back I've been neglecting school, because I felt that working on the relationship was more important. Turns out he just wanted a convenient place to get laid for a while before breaking up with me, which he spent so much time assuring me he had no intention of doing just so he ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
He phoned when he got home and read my note (about five minutes after I posted, actually). We talked for about an hour on the phone, then I had dinner and a movie (hot fuzz -- so effing funny!) with ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
His shift ended three hours ago, and he hasn't called. I'm fairly certain that if he didn't call when he got off the ship to arrange to see me tonight, he sure as hell won't call after he gets home. I don't know why this bothers me, but it does. As much as I don't want him telling me how much he screwed up because I would likely go into ( Read more... ) -
stress
On Saunday I removed all of my things from Colin's apartment, and left my set of keys on his kitchen table with a note explaining why I had done so. He gets back today. I can't decide which would be worse -- if he phones before he gets home expecting that I'll be seeing him later today, or if he doesn't phone at all. The one will make me feel ( Read more... ) -
supposed to be job-searching . . .
I have done no work on any of the three essays that I have to write. The energy just isn't there right now, and so I'm not forcing the issue and making myself crazy. Despite my own personal goals, I do officially have until the end of summer to finish these, so I'm not going to stress too much, at least not right away. I'm going to write the ( Read more... )