for those of you that actually read this....just a quick update to let you know that everything is great. nothing spectacular. just great. i think i've finally made inner peace. i'm just so happy to be alive.

even the nicest wolf is still a wolf.

i hate men.

i keep having really freaking nightmares about someone/thing chasing me. and no matter how many lights i turn on, i can't see who/what it is. i wake up shaking and sweating. i woke up crying this morning from it. and once i wake up, i'm too freaked out to go back to sleep ( Read more... )

had a lot of fun. watched bullet proof munk (stay away from that one). talked. found out he doesn't want anything but friendship. figure that is probably for the best. single sounds good right about now. don't really know what i want out of anyone. just want to be me. really want to hang with him again sometime ( Read more... )

so new years was quite interesting. i went to a party with josh. made the mistake of mixing beer and liquor. got really sick. played darts for shots. made out with josh's friend, john-michael. found out that i really like john-michael. really confused by that ( Read more... )

i'm having a really hard time breathing. he leaves tomorrow. i wont see him for a year or so. i can feel my heart breaking. why does everything always have to be so hard?

Well, for those of you who don't know, I quit smoking. I've been doing pretty well with it. But whatev. A couple of nights ago I went camping with Josh and his friends. I had probably the best time I've had with more than one person in years. They are some of the coolest people I've ever met. He is very lucky to have friends like them. And I am ( Read more... )

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Yay!!!!

i'm so happy you're home!!!