i hate being a competitive person.. it always put me in unnecessary arguments...
help me!!!

I MISS LAST SUMMMER!
I know what everyone means when they say
"change is for the better or the worse"

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and every time the sun rises; i awake feeling like im doing something wrong.
waking up;everyday, feeling like your doing something wrong its horrible.
it gets even more isteresting when i dont have answer to fix what it going wrong.
how can i solve this daily mystery?
why i feel this way.
mabe its a phase change, just like the moon to sun, yah know?
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i coupple things have been on my mind..
boys.
girls.
A girl.
no boys, ever!
School.
moving out.
new jobs.
min.wage. sucks.
fucking retared teachers.
college.
why even stick with school.
how come everyone has and std?
why am i so dumb. at times.
why do we watse time.
wouldent it be the right thing to do at that moment anyway, so is it wasting time.
iky.
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man. i really do feel like im falling down the rabbit whole.
with a whole bunhc of confusion and factually points being made day by day.
im not doing to well getting my life started for myself, though i keep telling myself i am its still not reaching to bottem.
im floating some where between me and Me.
i dont know i miss so many old things.
my job.
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why am i not working..
im sitting here in class looking at the plan white walls.*sighs*
the walls sorta remind me of my life. 
eccept my walls have been colored on by a retared 2 year old with permanate marker.
confusion and sufferage.failure and success everything in that painted picture witch makes so sense at all yet. 
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IM BORED>
Today Alison and i are hanging out with curtis and gracie.
:))
its gonna be funnn! untill i have to work at zumiez..
its my 1st day i dont really know what to expect,i know its reatail folding clothes and stuffkj32hfj.
but. there could be stuff that pop up. i mean its a job.. i hope this job doesnt get in the wayy,.
or eles..:)
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i like to refer to him as a dimond in the rough
i ve got countless reasons to support that statement ,all of witch you would never get tiard of hearing.
Frist of all i can relate to you soo much...
We have alot in commen ; finish eachothers sentence , to the same favorite color to telipathicly calling eahcother at the same moment.
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BRIEF UPDATE:
tonight at work was crazy
we were busy as fuck no breaks for rose   or i
we fired a guy [joe] for steeling money..
bastard!
he stole my 30$ ..shithead.
anyways.
we called my bosses in for help.tonight cause we had nothing stocked and nothing ready for closing and people kept comming in!
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