Um... well, foreign-food is kinda getting to me. Apparently no one here has heard of even a ham sandwich. Anything you want to cook or bake, you have right at it. And bring it over. We'll picnic on the front porch or something. Anything! I'm tired of all this
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Re: [Private]heart_shinesAugust 5 2009, 03:23:37 UTC
Ham sandwich? How about I get some things together and make a picnic for us? I can do all sorts of picnic food if that'll remind you of home and better times! And I'll make a cake! Or maybe cupcakes! What kind~?
I could really use a hug right now actually... I'm going to go see Balthier, probably tomorrow because he wants to see me and I promised him I would before I found out about Fran. What do I say to him? I know he does't remember much but... does he even remember that we were together? That I'm completely head over heels in love with him?
It was a shock to hear that... I'll be okay, I just have to process this and adjust...
Knock yourself out, kid. Anything to get my mind off of all this... and with a close friend. That'd be cool, too. Cupcakes, you say? ... heh, it's been such a long time since I had something that sugary... um... chocolate? With frosting and sprinkles? I dunno. You decide, you're the cook. :3
The question is, were you EVER officially together? ... I don't know, Kairi. You're coming to the wrong person for that kind of advice. ... but it would probably be best to gently break it to him, so he doesn't remember four years from now and feel horrible.
You'll be fine... I promise. And despite what people say, you do eventually forget about those you loved in the past. Especially when they didn't love you back.
Re: [Private]heart_shinesAugust 5 2009, 04:32:25 UTC
I can do chocolate! I think I have dinosaur shaped sprinkles around here somewhere! I can add some of those and maybe some butter cream frosting~? God I almost want to get up and make them now! I'll have something sugary for you!
No, no, nothing was ever official. That's why I'm kicking myself for being so upset about this. I knew his reputation, he told me himself about his reputation and that he wanted to wait until I was back on campus to discuss exactly what we had...
I know I'll be fine. I'm just tired and everything seems so exaggerated right now. After I get some sleep, it won't seem like such a big deal, right?
Ah, man, you and me both! Of course, I don't even know why I fell in the first place. I still blame it on my circumstances... new place, no friends, one family member, strong room mate, scared out of my mind, room mate was smart and pretty, and my hormones were going wacky.
But still! I think I like her as a sister better, anyway... but there is that jealousy. :(
Guuuuh~ this calls for a milkshake. Want to join me? ^^
Re: [Private]heart_shinesAugust 5 2009, 03:26:15 UTC
Hey! How are you feeling? I'm sorry I haven't been around much lately, it's hard to keep in touch when you're on vacation and are so far away from all of your friends...
We need to start a club for us single and giving up people! Especially the two of us... we're both effected by one relationship. You love Fran, I love Balthier... things can never be easy, can they?
Can I have a raincheck on that milkshake? Maybe tomorrow or something? I'm thinking that the more I look at my bed, the more comfortable it looks... ^^
I'm okayish... kinda exhausted, and yet all I did was go to a movie with a visiting cousin. Oh, and I can count my bottom three ribs... but don't worry about any of us! Vacation is about having fun and bonding with either yourself or whomever you take with you! Those of us back here are BORING! >3
I'm turning my attention to computers. They don't break your heart! And even if they do, just REFORMAT! ^^ Things are NEVER easy. I think I got off light, though. I mean, she never knew. I think. Then again, she knew I was sick before I knew I was sick, so... who knows? :P
Sure can! Milkshakes always make me feel better. Of course, they're horrible for me. Maybe that's why! ^^
Re: [Private]heart_shinesAugust 5 2009, 04:38:42 UTC
You guys are not boring and I missed you all! I wish I could have taken everyone with me! That would be an awesome vacation, wouldn't it? 8D
She probably knew... but didn't want you to know that she knew if that makes any sense at all. I'm sure she loves you if she puts up with you~! (I'm kidding~! About the putting up with you part that is, I'm sure she does love you!)
I'll take a milkshake as soon as I feel like a human again! Ugh I have so much laundry to do. I'm going to need a vacation to recover from my vacation! ^^
All I can say is don't give up on anything. I very nearly gave up after Abigail threw me out, but I held on to that smallest spark of hope, instead of going to a monastery and living the rest of my life in solitude. I thought I'd never be able to find anyone ever again, but I did find that someone, and if an old man like me can find someone, surely a beautiful young woman like yourself can.
If you do need a good cry, don't force yourself not to. Elsewise, it'll end up just building and building until you finally break down in a bus station in the middle of rush hour. If you do need someone to talk to, I know we haven't spoken much, and he is my best friend, but I'll be right over if you need me.
I'm... I'm okay. I know it didn't seem like it last night, but when I woke up this morning. I don't know, it's hard to explain. It's like things seemed brighter than they did last night. I mean, sure, it still hurts, but I know I'm going to be okay.
I'm going to go see Balthier soon. Either today or tomorrow... I know he doesn't remember much, so it should be an interesting visit :)
Come on, babe, don't give up so easily. You're a hard-ass and hard-ass women don't quit just because things are difficult right now. Just... take a sabbatical. Don't go looking for love, let it come looking for you for a while. Trust me when I say that, while love is amazing when you have it, it can seriously suck sometimes. People build it up to be fantastic and wondrous and something we all have to have, but that's a load of shit. You have friends around you who love you so much. I love you. If Demyx weren't in the picture, I'd so do you, just so you know ;)
You never know what the future holds. Well... actually, your sister probably does. Ask her! I should have spoken to her, so I could have been warned that MY FUCKING MAN WAS GOING TO RANDOMLY FUCKING SHOW UP HERE IN DUBAI DX
Re: [Private]heart_shinesAugust 5 2009, 14:52:23 UTC
You have no clue how much that entire comment made me laugh. If you made me wake Namine up, I'll smack you the next time I see you!
I'm okay, I know you of all people should at least believe me on that. I was tired and crabby last night, but today... today I think I'm okay with this. I mean I still love him, and that's not going to change.... but I'm truly okay with it.
Wait, Demyx is there? Someone is there for a long distance booty call isn't he~? Oh you know you love that he's there!
Re: [Private]blackstar_keyAugust 5 2009, 15:13:24 UTC
I'm glad it did! And hey, I'll make you a deal: if you don't have a significant other by the end of the year, I'll pay Demyx to go to a movie and I'll sleep with you, so then you can go and sleep with whoever you like as long as you use a condom. God help you if you don't :P
As long as you're alright, that's what matters. You know where I am if you want to call me.
Re: [Private]heart_shinesAugust 5 2009, 15:36:14 UTC
Somehow I don't think Demyx would be too happy about that! After all, you know that sleeping with a girl will give you girl cooties and you know he wants nothing to do with those~ :P
I'll call you later. Give you and Demyx some alone time~ >D
Not there for a booty call? What's going on? It's not like him to randomly show up when you're away...
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I could really use a hug right now actually... I'm going to go see Balthier, probably tomorrow because he wants to see me and I promised him I would before I found out about Fran. What do I say to him? I know he does't remember much but... does he even remember that we were together? That I'm completely head over heels in love with him?
It was a shock to hear that... I'll be okay, I just have to process this and adjust...
Thanks Xig, it's good to be home! ♥
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The question is, were you EVER officially together? ... I don't know, Kairi. You're coming to the wrong person for that kind of advice. ... but it would probably be best to gently break it to him, so he doesn't remember four years from now and feel horrible.
You'll be fine... I promise. And despite what people say, you do eventually forget about those you loved in the past. Especially when they didn't love you back.
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No, no, nothing was ever official. That's why I'm kicking myself for being so upset about this. I knew his reputation, he told me himself about his reputation and that he wanted to wait until I was back on campus to discuss exactly what we had...
I know I'll be fine. I'm just tired and everything seems so exaggerated right now. After I get some sleep, it won't seem like such a big deal, right?
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But still! I think I like her as a sister better, anyway... but there is that jealousy. :(
Guuuuh~ this calls for a milkshake. Want to join me? ^^
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We need to start a club for us single and giving up people! Especially the two of us... we're both effected by one relationship. You love Fran, I love Balthier... things can never be easy, can they?
Can I have a raincheck on that milkshake? Maybe tomorrow or something? I'm thinking that the more I look at my bed, the more comfortable it looks... ^^
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I'm turning my attention to computers. They don't break your heart! And even if they do, just REFORMAT! ^^ Things are NEVER easy. I think I got off light, though. I mean, she never knew. I think. Then again, she knew I was sick before I knew I was sick, so... who knows? :P
Sure can! Milkshakes always make me feel better. Of course, they're horrible for me. Maybe that's why! ^^
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She probably knew... but didn't want you to know that she knew if that makes any sense at all. I'm sure she loves you if she puts up with you~! (I'm kidding~! About the putting up with you part that is, I'm sure she does love you!)
I'll take a milkshake as soon as I feel like a human again! Ugh I have so much laundry to do. I'm going to need a vacation to recover from my vacation! ^^
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All I can say is don't give up on anything. I very nearly gave up after Abigail threw me out, but I held on to that smallest spark of hope, instead of going to a monastery and living the rest of my life in solitude. I thought I'd never be able to find anyone ever again, but I did find that someone, and if an old man like me can find someone, surely a beautiful young woman like yourself can.
If you do need a good cry, don't force yourself not to. Elsewise, it'll end up just building and building until you finally break down in a bus station in the middle of rush hour. If you do need someone to talk to, I know we haven't spoken much, and he is my best friend, but I'll be right over if you need me.
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I'm... I'm okay. I know it didn't seem like it last night, but when I woke up this morning. I don't know, it's hard to explain. It's like things seemed brighter than they did last night. I mean, sure, it still hurts, but I know I'm going to be okay.
I'm going to go see Balthier soon. Either today or tomorrow... I know he doesn't remember much, so it should be an interesting visit :)
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Come on, babe, don't give up so easily. You're a hard-ass and hard-ass women don't quit just because things are difficult right now. Just... take a sabbatical. Don't go looking for love, let it come looking for you for a while. Trust me when I say that, while love is amazing when you have it, it can seriously suck sometimes. People build it up to be fantastic and wondrous and something we all have to have, but that's a load of shit. You have friends around you who love you so much. I love you. If Demyx weren't in the picture, I'd so do you, just so you know ;)
You never know what the future holds. Well... actually, your sister probably does. Ask her! I should have spoken to her, so I could have been warned that MY FUCKING MAN WAS GOING TO RANDOMLY FUCKING SHOW UP HERE IN DUBAI DX
... I could kill him. And yet, I won't ;P
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I'm okay, I know you of all people should at least believe me on that. I was tired and crabby last night, but today... today I think I'm okay with this. I mean I still love him, and that's not going to change.... but I'm truly okay with it.
Wait, Demyx is there? Someone is there for a long distance booty call isn't he~? Oh you know you love that he's there!
I LOVE YOU!! ^___^
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As long as you're alright, that's what matters. You know where I am if you want to call me.
I don't think he's here for a booty call... -__-
LOVE YOU TOO <3
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I'll call you later. Give you and Demyx some alone time~ >D
Not there for a booty call? What's going on? It's not like him to randomly show up when you're away...
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
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