For Once 9
Truth
One week has passed.
I know I am at the edge.
We barely talk.
No more touches from you.
Somehow I can't remember.
Why do I even fight against it?
I shake my head.
Stepping out of my house.
Work is waiting. So is the car.
I smile to myself because
-you too.
I look up when I am down the small staircase.
The back-door of the car opens and you step out.
How my heart races.
You never cease to surprise me.
My driver gets into the car.
Giving us privacy.
You look miserable and I wish I could make you smile.
I say nothing.
Too stunned to talk.
You apologize.
You had to see me, you say.
Telling me about tonight’s event.
You dreamt I had been dying.
Should I be hurt?
No.
Suddenly you are wrapping your slender arms around me.
So this is how heaven feels.
Your hands are trembling when you pull away as if you'd been stung by a bee.
I am paralyzed.
I did not even have time to react.
You apologize again.
Saying you had to convince yourself it was just a dream.
I feel myself smiling at that.
You are so sweet.
Not thinking about it I cup your cheek.
When my thumb brushes over your soft skin, I smile even more.
You lean into my touch.
My stomach knots at this sight.
Suddenly I am pulled out of that moment.
My cell rings.
You step away, slipping back into the car.
My fingers wrap around the noisy object.
Someone will pay for this distraction.
This was our moment.
Chapter 1: http://heartbigapple.livejournal.com/572.html
Chapter 10: http://heartbigapple.livejournal.com/3006.html
One week has passed.
I know I am at the edge.
We barely talk.
No more touches from you.
Somehow I can't remember.
Why do I even fight against it?
I shake my head.
Stepping out of my house.
Work is waiting. So is the car.
I smile to myself because
-you too.
I look up when I am down the small staircase.
The back-door of the car opens and you step out.
How my heart races.
You never cease to surprise me.
My driver gets into the car.
Giving us privacy.
You look miserable and I wish I could make you smile.
I say nothing.
Too stunned to talk.
You apologize.
You had to see me, you say.
Telling me about tonight’s event.
You dreamt I had been dying.
Should I be hurt?
No.
Suddenly you are wrapping your slender arms around me.
So this is how heaven feels.
Your hands are trembling when you pull away as if you'd been stung by a bee.
I am paralyzed.
I did not even have time to react.
You apologize again.
Saying you had to convince yourself it was just a dream.
I feel myself smiling at that.
You are so sweet.
Not thinking about it I cup your cheek.
When my thumb brushes over your soft skin, I smile even more.
You lean into my touch.
My stomach knots at this sight.
Suddenly I am pulled out of that moment.
My cell rings.
You step away, slipping back into the car.
My fingers wrap around the noisy object.
Someone will pay for this distraction.
This was our moment.
Chapter 1: http://heartbigapple.livejournal.com/572.html
Chapter 10: http://heartbigapple.livejournal.com/3006.html