<><>I seem to be the professional at having ur friends turn their backs on me and walk away from my friendship....I think its hilarious how u say u'd never do that becuz my friendship to u is worth more than anything, and u wouldnt want to lose ur best friend..well I knew it, I knew u'd walk away from me, just like amanda did, and james, and ashley ( Read more... )

This is the blog I posted last night on myspace..and I've been feeling this way for a while. I just need to get away and clear my mind and come back when I feel better...I'm not crazy, but right now my life is...so this is break time...

<><>My life recently has been crazy..and nt the good crazy the hectic I dont understand why Im the one with this ( Read more... )

<><>Its funny to me..only because this always happens to me.....How come everytime I make an effort to make the people around me happy..I succeed forever?!?! But as soon as I ask someone to do something for me, that will help me get over something that took alot out of me emotionally they can only do it for like a week before they go back to the ( Read more... )

<><>Yup..I was right...Life is not as stressful or overly drmamtic for me if no guys are in it..The funny part..the guys werent making it stressful..

xoxo

<><>At this point in my life I'm tired of alot of things....but most of all I'm tired of Coral Springs. I cant take living here anymore. I really just wanna run away and forget all my problems that revovle around people from down here..I wanna run and find new peoplthat I dont know anything about and build friedships wiht them..and really honestly ( Read more... )

<><>So this is the most I've updated my LJ in forever!! But I've been really frustrated lately with alot of things... For one apparently I'm no fun to hang out with anymore..and now I've been told that it's scary I dont go out as much anymore..Theres a reason I don't just tell people my true feelings, every time I do I'm told I'm being retarded, or ( Read more... )

<><>Is it just me or is nothing kept sacred anymore!? For example I hooked up with this kid...and everyone and their mothers know about it..Poeple I haven't seen for months come up to me and they're like "Did u have fun hooking up with....?"Like how the hell do they know that?! Then you get the phone calls "OMG Akilah you hooked up with...??" I ( Read more... )

<><>So I almost never update my lj anymore...I dont see any point since I tell my friends everything..but this past weekend..starting with thursday night has been so off for me..Let me start at the beginning..so my new thing is to hang out with guys from Local Bands..I love it! First it was Westview, and now we've taken up with VFB. Well I 1st met ( Read more... )

<><>I hate pretending to be happy when I'm miserable inside..All the things that bother me about my life I set aside..and then all of a sudden I sit and think for like 5min and get really upset...I've been pretending for a long time to be alot happier than I truly am..I mean I am a pretty happy person..but no here i want to be..or no where where ( Read more... )

MERRY FRICKIN' CHRISTMAS ( Read more... )