me and myself - we're treading on dangerous water.

All God does is watch us and kill us when we get boring. We must never, ever be boring.

His Phone is off now.

I can't hear the voicemail anymore.

This isn't good.

 i just found out one of my best friends in highschool (whom i've been out of touch with for awhile) has MS.

Im so fucking pissed off and angry.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

this is the hardest thing I've ever dealt with and I need help. My emotions are so out of wack lately, I feel bipolar. Some days I think I can handle it, and some days all I can do is sleep. And some days I cry furiously until i can't breathe. If it wasn't for the support in Doug that I have I'm sure I'd be in the same Pajamas under the covers not ( Read more... )

My dad died on an idle thursday. I went to work and came home from work and had no idea. I loved him so much and while i was surfing the internet, filing, ect my dad was lying in a hospital bleeding to death. Although this might sound dumb, I feel like I should have known. When my mom told me over the phone, everything fell in slow motion. I lost a ( Read more... )

I can't write about it yet.

But through all of this, I've learned who my friends are. Because I don't care how uncomfortable it would have made me - I'd be there for my friends in a intimate way if this happened to them.

I'm not even angry at the friends who aren't there supporting me - It's just opened my eyes. I want good, real people in my life. ( Read more... )

 I am most content in small towns in the country. I guess the phrase "You can take the girl out of the country but you can't take the country out of the girl" applies to me. I like the sounds of the wind rustling through fields of flowers or vegetables. I like the sound horses make when they clank on the ground, and I even appreciate the ( Read more... )

I sought solace in your words

For your eyes didn't feel kind.

I wanted comfort in your arms,

But all I found - were mine.

I don't want to let it go

Just not sure how to hold on

Oh my darling (when I said to go...)

Well, tell me - are you really gone?

I didn't mean goodbye forever,

I don't know why I said those words

And in the dawn ( Read more... )