I hate being the only one who remembers.

Even if it's good that it's history.

it is.

I have not been here for lifetimes.
I am tempted to come back... but also tempted to start fresh.
Or not at all. Just thoughts.

I'm happier now than i have ever been here before. It has nothing to do with me.

i raced the train home this morning with the sunrise... and also home tonight with after church. I won both times... I love that stretch. It always makes me dream. trains make me dream, if that makes me a freak, i'll claim it. whatever ( Read more... )

(think ( Read more... )

i am so sorry. I'll bE Back here when i figure out how.
ugh.

I took some time off work to drive to Chicago.

the end.
still.
finally.
:)

God is so merciful.

Welcome weekend!

DECEMBER FIRST!!???!? Where are the flakes. I want to snowboard!

sometimes complete honesty has to be intentional ( Read more... )

I have been having a re-occuring dream for the last two weeks. Not every night but a lot. It's terrifying when i am asleep but when i wake up it seems so stupid ( Read more... )

Yesterday I learned to sign the alphabet. yes ( Read more... )

98% of the Synth Guitar that I (randomly) hear in my life makes me miss Southern California and momentarily makes me wish i was living a version of the 80's life i used to act out when i played Barbies. yeah... I Had a couple Barbies. "Cruisin down Pacific Coast Highway...Put the top down..." ( the ataris ( Read more... )