tomorrow is that meeting at the country club....oh god help me..

MAY ( Read more... )

i dont feel good...i dont know why, but it came all of a sudden this morning. i think its because of all the stress ive been under scince march and it hasnt gotten any easier on me. nothing seems to work for me anymore and things keep getting worse. i just...i just dont feel like doing this anymore, this day to day thing, i want to get out and see ( Read more... )

yesterday was weird, i was waiting for jeanne outside her class and mike was looking at me so i just looked right back and he acted like he was gonna smack me but he didnt n then jeanne came. and we played badminton!!! then i forgot my sweatshirt and had to go back to school n i talked to mr. habeck about chem and stuff n whats going on in my life ( Read more... )

monday i braved "the question". the question ive been obsessing over for weeks. and the question i already knew the answer to, but noone belived me. this is how it went ( Read more... )

"And its ok to just be friends When that friend hasnt stolen ur heart Over n over again And i pretend Like everythings alright When i see u every night Ive gotten good at lying to myself At making others belive im thru But i never could fool u Make belive im happy Screaming inside Made too many mistakes along the way Im tired of feeling sorry for ( Read more... )

"and everything inside me
is screaming out ur name
and all the world is silent
i just sit back n grin
i watch u live ur life
like i was never apart of it
pretend everythings fine
when im only screaming inside
i only hope that ull hear
the shrill voice thats in my head
listen close and ull hear it
how im dieing to touch u again
these months, they pass
each day ( Read more... )

"The swift green flew across the room into the ground. Shattering against the wind she sat silently. Everything slipped past her and paved the road following the signs. Wrist covered in black, silver covered in red. Holes covered her so deep, so deep you could see right through her if you leaned in close enough. No one ever did though, the only ( Read more... )

today was no fair...mr bouch was out so we had study hall instead of badminton...im sad...jeanne was sad too...we wanted to play so badly, we were all reved up this morning and then we got shot down...so upsetting it was that my whole day was thrown off...until chem! omg today was so funny, ben went to the office to get these crap papers that noone ( Read more... )