First off, to aware you of my disabilities/problems;
I'm ADD, ADHD, Bi-Polar, Manic Depressive, Obsessive Compulsive, Sidistic, Schizophrenic with provoked acts of rage, minor alcoholism, major pot-head, I am terrified of driving (but shall eventually conqure that fear) I try to be perfect too much, and i have an addiction to my own reflection in ( Read more... )

currently 17 (still, lol) My Status: Emphazima, srung ankle, overweight, stubburn pothead, novince guitar skills, lonely, depressed, but worst of all...i fantasize too much. see i take a look around outside and see alot of hate, alot of drama, alot of fighitng,killing,rape and more. I personally am tired of that bullshit, i mean who wants to be ( Read more... )

As of last night i am emancipated. it was rather odd last night, first i found out that i wasn't allowed to come to dahnee's birthday party (verry gay) then my mom started screaming at me the second me and dani stoped talking, mom was screamin somethin about how i had her lighter, i felt it rather rude that she would just yell my name and whatever ( Read more... )

When i'm angry, when i'm depressed, when i fuckin feel like it, when i say to get away, you've been warned. i've hit my own mother before i'm not afraid to hit you, if you just wont leave me the fuck alone, sometimes all i want is to be left alone in a fucking cave untill i'm ready to leave ON MY OWN MOTHER FUCKER!!!!! i don't care if your a guy or ( Read more... )

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everytime i cut myself, i also drink my own blood. in my sleep the only dreams i can remember are the crazy sex with all the blood, cannibalizim, nail driving, biting....some really crazy sex. i fantasize of actually biting into a juggler from time to time, its not just a vampire fantasy, more i wish to taste. pain is weakness leaving the body, ( Read more... )

i will never respond to the name scott anymore, too bad. start fucking using the name raven, or we'er just not cool anymore, i'm tired of the peice of shit family that i represent, and its everybody in cluding your fault. i'm forreal, i'll stop talking to you.

last night i jogged & walked 5 miles to my aunts house. i learned after 2 miles that i have smoked sooo much, that my childhood phlem problem has only quadrippled since the past recent years of smoking, at age 15 i was induced with 1st degree emphazima, doctor said if i don't quit within the next 5 years (mainly ciggerates) that i will never be ( Read more... )

How do i get bigger pictures view-able on here? anways alot of people been naggin over the past months once again about me and how i don't use my live journal, so i made a new one. tonight is my last night smoking pot for awhile, i think i might not start up for awhile even after i can. probation finally caught up with me from va and now i have a ( Read more... )