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I don't think I want to live today.
I can count how many candle flickers it takes to call the tilt back of your head and call of gasp from your chest ( Read more... ) -
01.03.10 The oddest things are making my skin crawl these days, like liars and backstabbers.
So I feel that since it is indeed a new decade, I should write a few of my thoughts down. If only for myself to read ( Read more... ) -
Missing him throughout long weeks puncuated by long sleeps and fingers crossed, I still long for him
I often look at the moon and wonder what the astronauts think about it, that is, when they are standing in its backyard. I often dream of walking along the brightest edge of the moon. I count stars like he taught me to, searching for The Big Dipper and Virgo. I dream of consellations and far-off planets on days when he is too far away for me to ( Read more... ) -
Bedroom floor sitting. Bedtime thinking. Finger crossing.
things to do before I screw my life up even more than it already is, or things to do before I realize it's too late to go back
- fill put deferment papers
- fill out Xmas app
- twirl my hair around my fingers while dreaming of whispers of sated love moments
- listen to indiefeed poetry for motivation
- bake cookies
Matchstick loveaffairs are always the way to go. ( Read more... ) - fill put deferment papers
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falling into the air never hurt so much, the cold bite stings.
I'm bad at breathing most days I realize.
I've always been kind of melodramatic.
reading: "My Sister's Keeper"
listening: Dashboard Confessional
feeling: spent -
subzero, the beats of my heart and constant flurries of forever falling on me
this whole subzero temperature thing is really beginning to annoy me. It's almost unbelieveable that my toes havent fallen off already. I spent the entire day outside it would seem.
it makes me want to cry a bit.
who can enjoy this?
i'm imagining it's summer and hopefully,
winter will end by next week..
wishful thinking -
encompassed in beauty and falling out of grace...most days i can handle temptations
reading: The Illiad
eyes drawn to: dirty things of the unforgiving naturerealizing that: the world does not stop at 4:30am twilights
wanting/needing/NEEDING:
all things wonderful; toe-curling; lip-upturning; laughter-enducing; magical; eyelash-blowing; happy-making; forever-promising; and all that goodstuff...
somethings are too far away
and sometimes ( Read more... )