This crap is over with, finally, and I'm finally back to normal and I still can't control myself!

How is it possible to make the same mistake twice and end up with different results, hmm?

Jacob, you've ruined me, I swear it!

I love you, Jacob...

I'm so sorry... I shouldn't have done that... I shouldn't have let things get this far

God I think I did something wrong... but it felt so... right.

Is it possible to be even more confused?

Edward... I'm such a horrible person...

So, Jacob talked me into a nap earlier. My headache's gone down a lot... yes Jacob, you were right ( Read more... )

Axel... where are you? What happened last night?

Holy..... Shit................

I have the hugest effin headache I've ever had in my life!

I..... will... NEVER drink hardcore liquor again!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I swear it on my life!

.......... And what the HELL did I do last night?! Anyone know? Cause I have no ideas.

Always wanted to say that and mean it........................

Everyone... I... am... a little... DRUNK! 1 1/2 bottles of hard liquor + lightweight me = not good

And don't tell me off for it, Jacob! I'm a big girl!

-giggles-

Axel's sweet, y'know?

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So....... Jacob's here now. Jacob.....

Doesn't that just throw everything out of wack?

I love Jacob, more than he'll ever really know. But I love Edward. For Christ's sake I'm marrying Edward!

And all these strange feelings are driving me crazy ( Read more... )

I wish for some playing cards and poker chips to distract me. Matt and I were going to play. Anyone care to join? And we are not playing for clothes!

.... This is one of those times I wish I was single not really but it would make me feel a lot less worse than I do but I couldn't do that to Edward. I feel so conflicted and messed up. Somebody cheer me up and distract me before I really lose my mind for good.

[[ooc- strike is easy to hack]]

I feel worse today. I feel like I'm losing my mind (which according to some I might have already done).

What is wrong with us?!