I kind of don't want school to start now. I'm not looking forward to it. I think it is that I am more scared than anything. I don't know what I am going to do after high school, I don't want to waste my life. I also don't want to go back without Ryan ( Read more... )

I have been hanging out with Ryan everyday now. I don't know if that is a good or bad thing? I think we might hangout tomorrow. I might say no, just because of the fact that we have been hanging out too much. It hasn't been either of our choices though, we just have been hanging out with our friends and we have the same friends so it's not like ( Read more... )

Things are getting ok I guess. It is still really really hard to be around Ryan because I just want to jump on him and kiss him all over ( Read more... )

I have been so lonely lately. I miss Ryan so much. I don't understand how he can just walk out on a two year relationship. It baffles me. He doesn't even care. I don't understand. I really don't. I want to be with him so much but I know that if I am too clingy or needy that it will just drive him away. I want to be with him so badly though!!! I ( Read more... )

That is right, I am nothing, I have nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing. I lost the only thing that I care about, the only thing that cares about me, I lost the love of my life and I don't think I will ever get him back ( Read more... )

Or atleast nothing interesting ( Read more... )

I'm so bored. I'm downloading like a million and one songs. I'm really tired, but I can't go to bed, because I want to download all of these songs first, I could just leave them and go to bed, but then safeshare could freeze and then they won't download or some of them could fail and I'd have to go and redownload them tomorrow, I just rather finish ( Read more... )

Well, I just got home from Ryans. I'm supposed to make a cd for him but I don't think I have any cds. I'd have to look and I really don't feel like looking. uhhg ( Read more... )

Well, today is just another day. Just like every other day ( Read more... )

Life is just blah. Everyone says enjoy your life while you're young it doesn't last long, but I can not wait till I am out of high school, out of misery. I can't wait till I am 30 and on my own and away from everyone. I mean, life as a teenager sucks. Having to depend on parents sucks. I don't have control over much, I barely have control over my ( Read more... )