The migraines have been coming back and I have been trying my best not to shoot my brains out. I forgot how bad they would get and how hard it was to go about the daily routines of life. It is hard to stick through work and even harder to sit through lecture. It is a tough torture to try to go through, but I'm somehow making it ( Read more... )

 Sometimes I feel as though I have come a long way. I don't hurt like I used to, I am not as vulnerable as I once was. Then there is one night where everything crumbles and I feel like I am back on square one. I can't stand depression and I can't stand feeling like I am out of control when it comes to my emotions. Last night I sat in my shower and ( Read more... )

 Sometimes I think I am in love with a man who is still eight hundred miles away from me. The things I will do to torture myself, I guess.

It is a pretty world, but you're prettier.


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He is everything, yet nothing at all. His face, his precisely cut face, it is somehow perfect and handsome, yet ugly, almost disgusting. He wants to touch me, I can tell; he wants to touch me, kiss me, and tear me apart. I close my eyes and all I can see his him; all I can feel is him, all that I breathe is him ( Read more... )

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 Pretty exciting, but pretty dreadful to know that I don't have many birthdays to look forward to now! I don't plan on doing a lot of drinking today, I will leave that to tomorrow. Hopefully there will be more to say about my birthday after the weekend... my work gave me the whole weekend off. :)

 Two weeks visiting Washington spoiled me. I feel hot constantly now that I am back in California and I hate the city I live in even more. Oh well, it just gives me something to work towards ( Read more... )

 Sometimes I can't believe I was ever like any of those girls. You know... girls who just need a guy (or at least feel like they do). I will not fall head over heels for a guy when I barely know him. I won't ever go back to a guy who has cheated on me and flat out told me he didn't want me anymore. I don't feel like I need a boyfriend at this point ( Read more... )

"It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing. It hurts so much. When I feel someone is going to leave me, I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing. Here it is. One more, one less. Another wasted love story. I really love this one. When I think that its over, that I’ll never ( Read more... )

It was magnificent.


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