i wanna quit panera
so i can work more at guitar center
and spend less time sweating and smelling like onions and salad dressing
is that so much to ask?
its strange to actually have a life and be busy with work
im all hopped up on dance
movement saves me

i
feel
so
heavy
in
every
sense
of
the
word
.

its raining sparkles
freeze your heart out
breathe smoke
ice inhalation
everything starred costs extra
additional charges for the sky
intangible open space
silent secrets scream

and thats all i got.

back
together
better
than
ever

rehearsal went very well
surprisingly
now hes coming
im not taking his word anymore
it always changes... usually goes back to his first decision
more indecisive than me
maybe just bi polar
not maybe
definitely
i just cant wait til tomorrow nite once the show is over
breaaaaak
just in time to start work

so im not looking forward to this performance tomorrow
or this dress rehearsal tonite
or this 4 hour panera seminar out in farmington hills tomorrow morning
im doing this all on my own
hes not even coming to see me dance
for the first time since i broke my ankle
and after months of these lame rehearsals
i cant breathe

Panera Bread hired me.
orientation tomorrow.
sickness this week. swollen throat glands. blahh
dance show this weekend

Saturday December 2nd 8pm
Azar's rug gallery
$15
come out and play

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