why is it that i can only feel good about myself when i'm high?

the frontal lobe of the brain - yeah, wish i didn't have one of those right now. i'm reading this book called Stumbling on Happiness and basically it's about how our mind works and why we think the way we do and blahblahblah. in this book it talks about the frontal lobe a little bit and how it's use is connected with planning. people with damaged ( Read more... )

2007 is just around the corner and there is definitely a lot of changing that needs to occur within me so i can be happy or atleast satisfied with my life ( Read more... )

i think i suffer from severe depression.. or it could just be the pill.. but whatever it is it needs to stop. i'm sad about anything, everything, and nothing at the same time. i start crying for no reason and out of the blue. i can't have a good time anymore without worrying about something else. when was the last time i actually had a good time? i ( Read more... )

it's such a let down when you can't get the one thing you really want out of life. all my life i've been told i can't do things because either i'm not good enough, it's too expensive, or because everyone thinks i won't be able to go through with it. when i was a kid all i wanted to do was play baseball, but i couldn't obviously because i'm not a ( Read more... )

so sunday i turned 20. my parents bought me yankees tickets.. tier box MVP seats behind home plate for sept. 14th against the tampa bay devil rays. should be an easy win but you never know with baseball. they also got me an andy phillips jersey which should be shipping out of the mlb shop warehouse any day now. i can't wait to wear it! my brother ( Read more... )

a few things i need to improve about myself...

+ loosen up a bit
+ keep my mouth shut about certain things (especially things that aren't a big deal)
+ not get so upset over silly things
+ learn how to be more patient especially with other people
+ not be so closeminded about certain things

and so much more that i can't think of right now.

life's been crazy. two weeks ago my boyfriend and i were involved in a pretty bad car accident. luckily, everyone is okay but it was still pretty bad. his car is totalled and we were both taken to robert wood johnson hospital in new brunswick. both of us were x-rayed and left with chest pains from the seatbelts and bruises ( Read more... )

i don't know what everyone's deal is with my boyfriend and me. we're trying to have a good relationship and CHILDREN are getting between us with their petty bullshit. i realize my friends and family and everyone who cares about me is trying to protect me and no one wants to see me get hurt, but he has no intentions of hurting me whatsoever. he ( Read more... )

happy new year. my left hand just fell asleep ( Read more... )