it finally snapped. maybe my brother or talking to my friend or mom. this isnt supppose to be a stoic post as i would have written maybe in highschool, and this is the first post since jan of 2007. i wanted to write this post many times but didnt because i knew in my head that it wouldnt be true. but it is. and i dont care if anyone even knows what ( Read more... )

I said it out loud,
over and over,
but what do I know.

I said it out loud,
over and over,
but it did not help.

I'll stop now.

there is so much more i want to say to you.
so much more i want to show you.

even the most glorious diamond needs to be cut and shaped
is there anything truely great, that lasts, that comes effortless?

i hope your ready

for the best time of your life

you are the sun that has risen in my life
i can feel your warmth you are so bright
with out you it might always be night
you are my sunlight

so it finally seems you think you're on to something
and
maybe you are more serious then i ever gave you credit for

i'd ask you not to blame me but i already know you dont

for that, thank you

dear lj,

you are a place to come to for many things.

well, even if i told you everything,

it wouldn't change anything.

sad
but

oh

so

very

true.

holy shit.
hahahahahahahaha

i don't believe it.
hahahha i cannot fucking believe it.

god i love me sometimes.

So she told me she was lucky
And I wasn't sure what to say
I want her to know i notice things
That flood me everyday
From the way she smells like charity
And wins at any game we play
How she never denies a kiss-
From my cigarette lips
No, she loves it just the same
And how every night that she holds me tight
I forget about any bad that day
I know she'd go ( Read more... )

why do i do it to myself?

why does anyone?

does anyone?

if you promise to give what i give
i'll promise to take what you take