I am at this stage in my life once again where the world seems like a machine that monotonously keeps chugging along with no peak of excitement. I hate these times.

 When nothing changes, nothing changes

I sat down, with hopes of writing a deep and meaningful entry, only to find I have nothing to say. And I think that says enough in itself.

I am proud to say that for the first time in my life I got over myself and my own insecurities and laid everything on the line. And I feel like total and complete shit. It is ridiculous. I did absolutely nothing wrong, I did everything right, things that did not benefit me in the least, which is unusual for me at times. But after all is said and ( Read more... )

So today has gone completely wrong, everything from start to finish. But I'm still standing. It's 9:00 at night, and I'm still smiling and still appreciating the little things. I have so much to say on here to myself and to anyone that might be reading this, but I can't bring myself to even start venting.

I'm such an inconsistent person and ( Read more... )

 it's past the point of controlling it now. it's starting to consume me.

i spent the day in my backyard yesterday.. and it was amazing. by myself, i laid in the grass (on a towel) jamming out to my itunes and just.. was. i fell in love with life all over again. it's funny because i have noticed how often my perception changes just because of one little thing that happens to me.. and i let it wear down my spirit. i don't ( Read more... )

life <3

As I am about to graduate high school tomorrow, I find myself probably more lost than ever. Rachel, you claim you have the most growing up to do and that everyone is moving on, but truth be told- I think you're wrong. I have been handed every single thing in my life on a silver platter. I am so grateful for everything that I have, but I have no ( Read more... )

 here's to potentially good things turning out bad, to keeping your head up during rough situations, to knowing that some day soon today's problems won't mean a thing. to the few good friends that would never betray you, to family that will always be there. to people everywhere who are trying to survive just as you are, and to life in general ( Read more... )