Infinitely better than I ever would have expected.

Last night after sleeping almost two hours I was woken by a phone call and the promise of a visit. I got out of bed as I would in the morning, only it was 11 o'clock and I was exhausted. I took a shower and put on comfortable clothes. Then he arrived, I made him music for the future. Broken Social Scene. Then we left in a little red car and went to ( Read more... )

Where is Matty ( Read more... )

Leaving momentarily. Belgium waffles for breakfast. Summer is over.

He is not the boy for me. And if nothing else, I realize that. Also that falafels (from pita pit), rootbeer and doritos may be the best possible combination for snacks. Hey I-J kids? Remember snacks? Hey I-J kids I'll see you so super-soon. Stopping my Adam's tomorrow night. ADAM! I miss ADAM! He was the best next door neighbour ever. Someone asked ( Read more... )

At this precise time I think I will just be SCARED.

WHY is this the way I feel right now?

I'm closer to leaving now than ever before. I'm in the process of packing bags. And I remembered singing Leaving on a Jet Plane with the drums boys, because it was playing in the Irish Pub. Loudest. I miss Malinowski, and I kept wishing all day to see him, even though I knew I wouldn't. Scared out of my mind, nervous I called Kevin tonight. And we' ( Read more... )

I finished, and then there was a hummingbird just outside the window. Not two feet away for two minutes. A long time for a hummingbird.

Unrelated.
When he thought it was a turtle. And a fast one. It wasn't at all.

Last time for a sunset cemerony. Last time to go out afterwards. And the best times afterwards. One who promised to arrive at the Nog at 1. One who didn't ever come. One who should be coming to Peterborough. Me, I doubt it. Jumping in carboard with Saldanha. Painful but super-fun. How high. On Perreault shoulders. Unbelievably scary. I wanted ( Read more... )

Tonight I called him to ask him that question exactly. He wasn't there. It was without a climax. I am without answers ( Read more... )