I felt sad today about him. Stupid Californication for bringing him up!

Anyone that knows me knows my mild obsession with this man.

Waa.

My right hand hurts from all the writing. All old news. Every last thing I wrote at the end of last year. At the very beginning of this one. Brian Carl. Carl Brian. Brian Brian Carl. Repeat ( Read more... )

It's been over a year since the last entry I wrote in here. And that last entry was written at a time when everything was so open for me. Like some sort of fork in the road. Which I, of course, chose unwisely ( Read more... )

that i was a great judge of character. someone who could see the good AND bad in everyone. and watching myself be proven wrong, was one of the most humbling experiences of my life. but it didn't break my heart ( Read more... )

i LOVE love.

<3

ahhhhhhhhh!

sometimes the actions that i willingly decide to take amaze me ( Read more... )

i love you.

consisted of drama.
and being really drunk and annoying.

this year i resolve to write more.
be nicer.
be more honest. with myself.
and other people.

i resolve to own my feelings.
and other people's feelings for me.

etc.

for the past week or so, i have felt a mixture of anger and absolutely nothing at all. and i can't explain it, but it's weird. and i wouldn't say that i am unhappy, because i am not. i am okay with where i am. i am okay with the people i surround myself with ( Read more... )

wow.
holy shit.
oh dear.

that's all i hear in my head.
and i'm okay with it.

i am freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
no more guessing.
just living.

goodnight.
i am overwhelmed.