Happy Easter ( Read more... )

I lost another friend this weekend.
Although, I am not even sure whether or not, he was ever my friend to begin with.

I just wish I could pinpoint the moment when "dumb cunt" became his favorite word.
Because it lost his affect.

Oh well.
Fuck it.

i am ashamed of myself. i did something i regret. and i never regret anything.

and i'm sorry about it, but it doesn't matter.

i became somebody i couldn't stand and i allowed it to happen.
to keep the peace?
to help?

obviously, that didn't matter.
because i fucked up anyways.

i helped no one.
and the peace was never mine to keep.

i am sorry.

today, i feel like death.
st. patricks day blows.

i thought i knew exactly what i wanted, but when i took the time to really think about it. to sit down and look around ( Read more... )

i need to prioritize.
and make up my mind.
and clean up my act.
and cleup up my room.
and save money.

all of those things.

but especially make up my mind.
so i can go to sleep.
without my head spinning again.

thanks.

i need to clean my room.

but...

i want to finish my nicole richie book.
i want to listen to shitty music while writing.
i want to be extrememly lazy and just lay in my bed.
with my goat.
and charlie baltimore.

instead, i will go clean my room.

1. i am reading a really good book by chuck klosterman from matthewnicholas.
2. i am upset about working until close tonight.
3. i love my son. more than anything else i have ever loved.

promise.

i am hungry.
and hungover.
and tired.

today i bought bright eyes "noise floor ( Read more... )