I moved out... YAY one for the home team. Now I just want closure. I want to be friends with *B* but he is being wierd. I don't know. He ran off to Dallas again. So maybe this is good. I need the space because I have to get over him now. ASAP. There is no way I am going to sit here and be upset over someone that doesn't want me.

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This was a good week. I took leave, so I have been just relaxing and running errands. Things with me and *B* are ... well they are typical. Me wishing things could be better between us. Not that things now are not good, but he doesn't want to work this out. I understand though, he has a lot going on. So I move into my new apartment on monday - big ( Read more... )

WOW I had a blast. I was on my way to get fuel for my trip to Austin when Amber called and asked what I was doing. I asked her if she would like to go for a night on the town and amazingly enough she said YES! So I picked her from the barracks and we headed to my friend in Austin Patricia's house. UT won the game against OU which was a huge upset, ( Read more... )

I may have go to Paulettes without *B* today. Since he is in Dallas, I will be dining on Paulette's awesome Caribbean cuisine alone?!?! Nah I will take Britt. She loves the beef patty. We have Ackee and saltfish here, even some bun left in the cabinet. But it just isn't the same. Paulette can throw down some good food boy!!! Yum

Funny thing is he reminds me that we are not together but I miss him dearly. I don't want to move out. But I signed my lease. I move out of his house and into the apartment on the 15th of October. I am so sad. I never felt so much for one person. And tonight he is in Dallas and I see how much I care for him.

Be weary the players for the outfield has a full team on it. Am I the batter at the plate or am I on 3rd base about to slide into home? It sounds like a beautiful metaphor but it does not relate to my situation.

On another completely unrelated subject, here are some pix from my birthplace.


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Just as I go on and on about him, he does some stupid shit. Hahaha! Men. Well what can you do? I suppose since we are NOT together (keep telling myself that) that it is ok for him to act the fool. See the truth is, at this point I know I love the man but I also know he doesn't want a relationship with me. So why sweat him? I won't. Well.... like ( Read more... )

Ahh yah I got busted in mid look. There we were, in the kitchen - cooking TOGETHER, and my eyes stayed on his warm chocolate skin. He looked over and he huffed out a gruff, "WHAT?". What? Oh do you know how sexual you make me? Do you know the strong sensuality you exude? Boi!!!! I smiled gently and told him this was our attempt at "teamwork". He ( Read more... )

How do I stop being in love with him? I made myself put a stupid personal ad up and all I do is compare everyone to him. I can't stop. I don't know how to not love him. Everytime I see him, he touches me, or something reminds me of him, I find myself wanting him more. Make the pain go away. It hurts so deeply.

Damn he makes me sooooo HIGH and so LOW at the same time.... This man drives me wild... Damn that Jamaican boi and his voodoo. What spell is over me?