I have no idea what I want to do career wise. I'm freaking out because I'm afraid I'm on the wrong path. A lot of this goes back to me watching my mom work when I was younger. My dad didn't go to college and got lucky enough to get a great job that he loves. My mom on the other hand went to college and wound up with a career that she hates. I ( Read more... )

 I think I finally get what I was told. I need to figure out my own life before I can place myself in someone else's life. I had my priorities backwards. I was watching the Super Bowl recap on Hulu last night and I almost cried when it started. I get so excited when I watch the game, not just the game but my team. I get a butterfly feeling in the ( Read more... )

 I have felt like complete crap the past few days. Partly because it has been so hot out, but mostly because of a mixture of other things. I feel like I have taken so many hits this weekend. I haven't been able to really eat all weekend until this evening... I lost 3 pounds in 2 days. That sounds good on the surface, but as a dietetics major I know ( Read more... )

 I think it's sort of humorous that I am currently giving 2 friends advice on boys when I am clearly not the expert. Apparently I can figure out other people's boy issues and be right on the money, but when it comes to my own I'm too afraid to follow my own advice ( Read more... )

 It's kind of nice having a place to post things and knowing that the chances of anyone reading it are slim to none.  I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I told someone that I know what will make me happy and what I do with my life depends on if I can get it or not. I know that sounds kind of childish to run away if you ( Read more... )

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 I need to stop over analyzing everything. I spend way too much time thinking about things that I can't change. I keep trying to tell myself to just live and let everything else follow, but I have no idea how to do that. I don't know how to pretend I don't care. I do care... way too much. I can only be patient for so long. I just want to love and ( Read more... )

 I'm really surprised I even remembered my random password for this thing. I know no one is ever going to read this, which is fine by me. I spent all evening last night reading the majority of my entries on here. I always thought things were bad, but I never realized how bad they were. My entire life I have tried to not be my mom, but turns out I ( Read more... )

i finally came out with all my feelings yesterday that i've held in for the past year... unfortunatly i sent them a message on MySpace and they went on the junior trip so i wont get a response for a few days... which has now given me anxeity attacks on and off all fricken day!! idk what to do about them anymore, they control my life... when i'm not ( Read more... )

just got home from St. Louis... it was fun i suppose but i'm extremely glad to be home to my friends and a nice shower!! plus 8 hours in a car with my family is waaayyy too much!

i just don't understand boys!!! i mean they stare at you like they're interested and they want to meet you and then what do they do??? talk about no laugh about you behind your back!! i'm sooo through with guys this year!! they drive me insane!!!

i need chocolate... and a hug