I had many dreams last night trying to remember them today wasn't easy.

The first one that I can remember, I was at my dads house in the kitchen cooking bacon and rice krispys.. (I know strange right? lol)  My sister said then the kids are staying over tonight and so are you right and I said yeah I'll stay here with them. The next thing I know my ( Read more... )

I just had a great time last night with people I never knew I could. For some reason I came to swing ready to dance with Brannon and not dreading it. I am his dance partner and maybe I will never like him but I could at least be good at that for him. We both seemed more relaxed then ever. We learned a new step which was our hardest one yet. We ( Read more... )

Dear God,

I could really use your help getting my shit together. I would like to feel like I was accomplishing something with my life. I would like to feel like I knew what  your will is and what path I am supposed to on.  It would also be appreciated if you could  help out all of the people that I love with their struggles in their lives.

Thank ( Read more... )

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the ONE in this life
The one we all dream of but dreams just aren't enough

So I'll be waiting for the real thing
I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting
Will play out like a scene Straight off the silver screen

So I'll be holding my own breath
right up til the end until that moment when
I ( Read more... )

I am starting to get frustrated with Dustin. I don't think he really understands the concept of "BROKEN UP" I want to be friends but when he texts me 20 times a day, asks me almost every day if we could hang out, we have the same talk over and over. He Flirts like crazy and I have to try not to encourage it and that is hard with out hurting his ( Read more... )

I awoke around 11:30 am with a smile on my face. After how up and down the night before was I am not sure why this happened but I will welcome any happiness I can get! I did some stuff around the house, to tell you the truth I am not even sure what but the time seemed to fly. I started to get ready to go to swing class around 5:00. It was grey and ( Read more... )

I was sitting at a small square table close to the restrooms as the band set up and tuned their instruments. I had come because Aaron had invited me but as I was sitting there I was feeling like maybe I should have just stayed home. Steve was going join me if he got  back from CMU in time and Lindsey would be joining me as soon as she was out of ( Read more... )

I didn't have a whole lot planned other then some laundry and stuff. Dustin had been texting me all day and asked if we could get something to eat after he got out of work. He said he wanted bread sticks I knew this was a lie since he never really liked bread sticks all that much. But somehow he talked me into hanging out eatting bread from ( Read more... )

Dustin and I hung out for the first time yesterday... It was.. good I think. I had nothing to do and he invited me to go bowling with him and his sister. I wasn't sure if I should but I finally gave in since we did both said that we really wanted to stay friends. It felt easy and little like home but not in a longing to be with him kind of way. I  ( Read more... )

I am sitting here after probably one of the most boring days of my life in a very long time! and I'm crying ( Read more... )