Comments | heavy_lights: I won't tell anybody

bestthingaround in heavy_lights

I won't tell anybody

Jan 21, 2011 23:51

Prompt 38:
( Don't believe what you tell yourself late at night )

Comments 9

original; "for now we dance" eponinesyndrome January 23 2011, 09:14:14 UTC

you dance with me now but you'll leave me tomorrow. amid white lights and blue shadows you love me, but you'll change your mind, i know. you smile, you touch my bare elbow with the pads of your fingers. you kiss me, so gently, until i'm afraid i'll bend from the lack of pressure. everything is beautiful and right and my anxiety-ridden mind is at peace for once. i'm content for once in my life. but this won't last. we'll start fighting. my nail-biting will annoy you. you'll think my debilitating panic attacks are freaky. when i call you at 2 in the morning for reassurance you'll think i'm clingy and needy, when i've always been the independent one. you'll stop kissing me. you'll stop grazing my skin. we'll stop dancing. you'll leave me alone and promise some kind of bullshit connection. friends, fuck you. my heart will break and i'll cry for days, crushed under a new kind of anxiety and pain. but for now we love. for now, we dance. please prove me wrong.

Re: original; "for now we dance" bestthingaround January 24 2011, 02:14:29 UTC

I love the omniscient look in the future element to this. really beautiful details.

Re: original; "for now we dance" eponinesyndrome January 24 2011, 06:09:37 UTC

thanks!

bestthingaround January 23 2011, 20:01:35 UTC

we first talk because the keg is about empty but you give me the last good beer; I say something about the foam-to-beer ratio and you smile. I saw you earlier, sitting with your friends that I hadn't met yet, but we don't talk until now, a red cup in my hand and the keg hose in yours. You like my earrings. They're not real turquoise, but they're pretty blue and half an inch, and he asks, "guess what size my earrings are?" and when I guess, "an inch and a forth" and get it right you grin, real big and wide and this is easy for us ( ... )

eponinesyndrome January 23 2011, 22:22:33 UTC

so simple and sweet. beautifully written.

bestthingaround January 24 2011, 02:07:19 UTC

thank you! :)

bubblingbeebles January 24 2011, 06:04:16 UTC

We walk down the street in the odd hours of the morning, and I can tell you are ill at ease ( ... )

eponinesyndrome January 24 2011, 06:12:13 UTC

so gorgeous. eerily heart-breaking. strangely enough, i needed this right now. beautiful.

bubblingbeebles January 24 2011, 06:16:29 UTC

eeee, thank you so much! it is wonderful to know it did it for you. :)