1/27/07
“The first stage is a mild anesthesia, after which the diver becomes a god. If a passing fish seems to require air, the crazed diver may tear out his air pipe or mouth grip as a sublime gift … I like it and fear it like doom. It destroys the instinct of life.” Capt. J. Y. Cousteau (1953)

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with everyone asking Are you alright? it’s easy to forget how happy i am.
(I’m just tired is never quite right, but it’s never quite a lie. a lot like I can’t live without you, or No, I swear I wasn’t asleep.)

i remember in the morning on my way to work, lost in the green maze of potted plants that line west 27th street. (i wasn’t aware that people ( Read more... )

last night was stupid.

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i've never been one for animals (with the occasional reprieve for selected humans), but Wasabi and i get along swimmingly.

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“it was something quite special, that feeling: an oppressive hideous constraint as if i were sitting with the small ghost of somebody i had just killed.”


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i dreamt of loose teeth and bloody gums again, but this time it was voluntary. i clenched my jaw and forced the tiny bones from flesh. terrible, i know, but for some reason i knew that i had to...


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"...in Dallas, where police pepper sprayed, roughed up, handcuffed, and arrested a man and his 14 year-old son for jaywalking. The man was eventually jailed for eleven days. Witnesses corroborate the man's side of the story, who was apparently referred to by one of the officers as a 'fucking longhair.'"

i had this bizarre dream the other night that stuck with me throughout ( Read more... )