Here is my good bye. I no longer wish to keep this live journal. Slowly I am cutting back on the internet as a whole. Those who wish to keep up with me know how to do so. It has been fun...good bye.

It's amazing how relationships form. I have penpal in Italy that I have been writing to since 1996 or 1997. We still keep in touch. I love it. I never really had a relationship with my mom's aunt Gail, and all of the sudden I do. I email her and she emails me all the time. I love to hear her perspective on things. I really like that I have ( Read more... )

Well..just finished painting my nails. I think I'm going to watch a movie. I'm feeling pretty bad about myself and my looks. I'm pretty ashamed that I look the way I do. I'm working on it tho. I'm just going to be staying in a lot lately. I just feel worse when I go out. Well..on the bright side...My nails look good. I'm just bored now.

Tonight I started getting lonely and to miss my family...but then a "friend" started talking to me online. First of all, it makes me so happy when I don't have to send the message to initiate the conversation. Either way...he told me a story that made me cry, and we had a really good conversation about it. Then he asked me about me. And he made ( Read more... )

One day, when I was a freshman in high school,
I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.
His name was Kyle.
It looked like he was carrying all of his books.
I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday?
He must really be a nerd."
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my ( Read more... )

My subject up there is my friend Paige's away message. I would have to say that that is about where I'm at. Maybe I am a shitty friend and maybe I have some major character flaws. I guess I'll buzz off now. I can't be all that bad because I have some really close friends, but oh well, shit happens.  I just really hate living in a battle field of ( Read more... )

Well...I know that I should be reading for class or brushing my teeth or something, but I feel that this entry is a bit more important.  I was just talking to my sister, Heather, and I realized and had a lot of thoughts confirmed for me.  So...here goes ( Read more... )

So here we are ( Read more... )

I just feel like everything I knew has vanished.  I thought I had good friends that were honest with me and that trusted me...but I guess not(Kevin and Ashley, in that order).  I just really can't stand all of the deception any more.  My family may be fucked up, but at least they are real not fake people putting on a show and hurting those who care ( Read more... )

Well...people play tricks and destroy my self image...thank you. I lose my friends due to distance and time....than you. I cry because I am going to miss Ian...thank you. I feel so alone...even when I know that there are some people who care. I love Kevin and don't want to give him up....but what choice do I have. I will show you all...just