the worst thing that happens after a weekend like this is knowing it might not last forever.

i dont know where this overwhelming sense of fear came from, but i am seriously disliking it. i am in a happy place now- in fact, i was thinking about that today on the way to work- late, as usual, and with good reason- about how happy i really am right now, in this moment. there are a few things i'd like to tweak: i'd like to have more money, id ( Read more... )

i swear to god, im going to write a book someday. if the next 20 years is anything like the last, this shit is worth reading.

the past few days have been really good. im quite impressed. only 14 days till i see my papa too! im so stoked. a few nights ago, sar and i decided to do some "painting" while we shared a smoked, and it was so much fucking fun. (Thanks, btw, sar, for 'Heidi's blue Vagina'. ill hang it over my kitchen table ( Read more... )

weirdest fucking day ever.

update: psychic lady came BACK in today, wrote down her phone number on a card, and said "dont chicken out, sweetie. you would, too." and left.

now im freakin out, man.

and no, honest. im not making this shit up.

WOW! now THAT was a fucking fun night.

:::klinks imaginary champange glass:::

here's to good times.

i talked to my grandpa today!!! im so happy. he sounded just the same, just as tired. 
i had another dream. i was at some graduation- not my high school one- and he was there, and i ran up to him and kissed him on the cheeks. i had this big puffy cap and gown on. he was so proud.

allllllright time to start my night.

see you sunday afternoon.

So i just got off the phone with my dad, and turns out the only time he can go to wisconsin this summer are on the exact same days as im going. the sick irony of it. i guess his birth mother isnt doing very well, theyre only giving her a month or something sick, so he has to go to st. louis(where she's on a feeding tube and stuff) and finalize ( Read more... )

i was right. its easier if you dont talk to me. i eat more and think less.