It has taken me over two weeks to get the gumption to write in here about this, but.  My daddy died on the 4th.  The morning after his 57th birthday, in bed, Mama woke up to him cold and stiff.  It was undoubtedly the worst phone call I have ever and will ever receive.  I am still just dead inside and numb over it.  My dad.  One of my best friends ( Read more... )

Hi, journal.  It really has been too long.

I usually only write in here anymore when I'm having some kind of existential crisis.  My last post was about K and I breaking up.  I don't have anything bad or upsetting to say today.

I am writing this so that I can come back one day and remember this fleeting feeling.

I have been seeing someone on and off ( Read more... )

Who am I ( Read more... )

Dear el-jay ( Read more... )

Ugh I feel so off kilter tonight. I feel very distracted. I can't really pinpoint what exactly is making me feel so strange. My heart and brain are duking it out. Everything is going great but it's also a lot to take in, especially for an emotional recluse like me ( Read more... )

How and why is this happening to me?
I was fine.  Content.  Safe in my routine.
Then you came along.
You with your dazzling smile and your pretty eyes and this glow about you
And now I'm smitten and it's all your fault
I was in control of everything
I was comfortable in my loneliness without anyone to fill the void
Then you came along.
You with a voice ( Read more... )

I am drowning in the intoxicating scent left in my sheets.  Sweet and soapy, like little orchid buds, wrapping me up like a warm blanket.  Like a song that I only know the tune to ( Read more... )

I need to know ( Read more... )

If you listen to the night, you can hear the darkness call

I can barely stand to wait, I can barely stand at all.

C'mon closer to me now, like we're sharing the same skin

We gotta get outta this jail. We gotta let the future in.

So many things in your life that you're bound to regret

Why didn't I do that? Why didn't I do this?

So many chances you lost ( Read more... )

You're like an Indian summer in the dead of winter.