My whole life I felt so dettached from my family. Well Im sure when I was younger things were different. My cousins and I would play hide and seek and run up and down the beach at Aunt Karens annual before X-mas party(ahh the joys of living in California in Decemeber). But as I got older we grew further apart and as I grew more independent "family ( Read more... )

with a cut on my leg and bunny/dog looking creature drawn on my arm. Sometimes I feel like my whole life is one long night of drinking. You wake up trying to dicern the reality and continue to wonder, how the hell did that bunny get on my arm? Seriously though, lately I feel like my life is in this constant dream state. Its like I don't care since ( Read more... )

Today was a weird day. I had two mid-terms that I was completely unprepared for and yet they seemed super easy. Maybe its because they were. Everyone sat there freaking out trying to cram as much info into their heads at the last second but I just pulled out my sample ballot and read over the proposition that I would be voting on later in the day. ( Read more... )

This is my first evening off in a while. All the roomates are gone so Im just relaxing in the living room watching Valmont. Ahh the joys of wireless internet. Valmont is a wonderful film and actually the basis for Cruel Intentions. Its got that sex appeal of 17th century France. Not much is shown but its still hot you know? Its like watching porn ( Read more... )

Its amazing how life can twist and turn so much and how something beautiful can come out of something so sad. Well maybe not sad but dissappointing in that things can change so rapidly. So much so that you don't realize it happening until it was too late. But maybe thats where fate comes in. If its ment to be you will welcome the change with open ( Read more... )

both physically and mentally. School is really rough right now. Im wading though the stress slowly but surely. I just have to keep telling myself its a means to an end and I really want to end up teaching. Im really getting a work out at trader joes. I don't think I have ever been this sore from a job before. My bodies just not used to that much ( Read more... )

This rain is a gift I swear. I wasnt in the best mood last night. Between the paper that I had to write and other stuff not worth mentioning here I just felt sort of annoyed. I finished the paper but Im pretty disappointed with it. I didnt spend as much time as I would have liked on it. The beginning was good I think. I spent more time on that then ( Read more... )

Today has been a day filled with incompetent jerkish workers. Today put me in a rather pissed off sort of mood. But I look outside at what a lovely day it is turning out to be and Im not about to let dumbass people drag me down. I had such a great time yesterday. Brian and I spent the whole day together including an unplanned trip to the tide pools ( Read more... )

Right now Im sitting in my room listening to Chen read out loud for work. Shes the person that records books on tape for the disabled students at Cal State Long beach. I enjoy my job a lot more I think. I just sit there. And trust me, in the past few months Ive become quite good at it. I have no real reason for posting. Im tired and extremely bored ( Read more... )

I wish I had a choice in this matter but the fact is, I don't and I realize this. I just wish I could go back in time, to last week even, when my smile wasnt forced. I despised work today. I had to greet all the happy patrons with a sunny disposition when all I wanted to do was get in my car, drive down PCH and let my troubles float away in the ( Read more... )