ahh. I had forgotten how frustrating love and relationships can be. Its my own fault though, I told myself I'd never date someone from work. But he caught me off guard. I just can't believe the things that come out of my mouth when Im around him(no pun intended). I feel so honest, like all the things Ive always wanted to say but have been to afraid ( Read more... )

Chens 21st was this past weekend and I suddenly felt very old. Not older then her I guess. I still have a few months till my 21st but old in the sense that time is passing by faster then I like. Or maybe I shouldnt blame time but myself for not doing all the things I really want to be doing. Well there is really a few things I'd like to say to a ( Read more... )

So my roomate gema or one of her friends completely defaced a picture of mine and in their drunkin stupidity left the pencil right by the picture in the kitchen. Then she has the nerve to tell me to not vacuum because her friend is still asleep when she woke me up at 8. But you know what, I never say anything. I never get mad or freak out because ( Read more... )

I feel like Im in high school again. YOu know? When you had those 4 hour conversations about nothing and everything at the same time. And at that moment you felt like the person you were talking to actually got you , the real you. I can honestly say that at this very moment he is the only person who truely understands me. I know Im not the easiest ( Read more... )

At Terrance's party last sunday I met this guy Joel and we got to talking about camping and rock climbing and the like. It made me think about how much I miss camping from when I was younger. Heading up to June lake in my dads truck, listening to music and enjoying the scenary then setting up camp and going fishing or hiking all day. Joel and I ( Read more... )

Do you know what fantastic thing happened to me today? All my classes were dropped for some bullshit reason that has nothing to do with me. So now I have to pretty much crash every single class minus one. But despite all that I am in a particualarly good mood this evening. I don't know what it is really. Could be the fact that Im kicking ass at ( Read more... )

Day three of being sick is about as equally as fun as days one and two were. I feel better, well I am at least able to do more then just lay there but I still feel like there is so much to do and that just makes my head hurt. I got sent home from work early yesterday on account of my blazing fever and probably the fact that I wasnt too nice to ( Read more... )

Well, I just got myself out of that corner. Of course now I am the biggest asshole on the planet. But maybe since I realize it theres still hope for me.

Is it possible for your heart to break as you're breaking someone elses?

I feel backed into a corner.

Like no matter what I do I'm going to be the jerk.

I just don't want to hurt anyone.

Currently seeking : Enlightenment

Ok so the past few days I have had little to know sleep. AWESOME! Except its not. My life is like school, work, study, school, work, shower, eat, study, eat, school, work, eat, sleep. Yup thats pretty much what Im doing right now.

Somehow I gotta fit sewing in there.

I wish there were more hours in the day! Whos with me?!?!

later fuckers