ive been thinking alot about what happens next. still so uncertain about what direction im heading and what to focus my energy on. i asked facebook "hey what should i do when i grow up so i can feel fulfilled in life and make some ( Read more... )

here i am a new person its a new fucking day and my body continues to regenerate and i question what the fuck it means to say my body. my body? who is me? the billions of organisms that run this creature... so much information stored, processing, traveling... the other night michael and i were talking, oh i cant even recall what we were talking ( Read more... )

wow, its amazing how much i want to distract myself from writing these days. ive been spending too much time on my phone staring at other peoples lives and words ( Read more... )

morning pages went right out the window once i had to work at 7:45 in the morning ( Read more... )

vision arrow:

first prayer,

i dance clarity thru my path

second prayer,

llave trusts the universe

third prayer,

i find healing and balance in physical, emotional and spiritual health. with grace and ease.

surprise! another late start. i woke up feeling anxious. shannon asked if i wanna go camping thursday & friday. and i said yes, i do! but, i dont have a tent, i dont even have a bag. i dont know if she wants to hike in. if so, it would be hard for me to do. but not impossible. and then i started thinking about what to pack for food, and when i ( Read more... )

late start. cookie breakfast. chicken bones in front of me. card for my mothers birthday. the things i have left for tomorrow. cough drops. bumble bar. mechanical pencil eraser. water. glasses. paper. books. bear. car. gecko? salamander? mug with the mushrooms. hat. multi purpose solution. ect. ect. ect ( Read more... )

feeling pretty excited about how on top of the morning pages ive become. i think writing here has been helpful. it was difficult to get out of bed this morning. took a long time. i put neem oil on my head last night. what an awful idea. i cannot handle the smell of that shit so close to my head. so this morning i added some patchouli to coconut and ( Read more... )

so, i didnt write here, but i did write in my journal yesterday after my appt ( Read more... )

its supposed to be in the 70s today. and the sun is already shining. i get anxious. like i have to get out into the sun, into nature because it wont last. summer is so short. it makes me anxious ( Read more... )