so- its official....Im never right.

I cant decide why I still do this- its not helping.

Fucking-christ, Im gonna go crawl in my room/listen to music and wait for something interesting to happen.

FUCK

Im so confused.....I need a friendly voice- I need an even friendlier hug- 
someone who understands- someone I can trust

I hope this wont be as bad as I think it will be-

Please don't judge me by my face ( Read more... )

So I start work today- its only training.   But it goes from 3-11pm...I think thats fucking redicuclous, its too long.I dont wanna go- I just want to go hang out with Cisneros- I have a lot of fun with him ( Read more... )

Hey there!!

So today is going by slow- but its not that bad so far.  I didnt go to my first 2 classes, I went to K.C's instead....we just sat there and ate her food and watched American History X....I love that movie- I think that its good.
I am SOOOOOO behind in this class- I hate it.  I think  this is the class that will hold me back from ( Read more... )

YAWN!!!!

Today was going pretty well- but now out of nowhere Im tired and mad.
I dont wanna go to comp tech next.....I hate that class.
Maybe I can sluff in Garretts class and do pottery instead. HHHMMMM-
I wrote another poem last night but Im not sure if I'll post it- it may start drama.
I guess we'll see.

Why does everything seem to go wrong?
I try to keep a good face,
I do my best to stay strong.
It's just so hard when you're constantly feeling like you have to lie.
About your life and about the times you cry.

You might say, "I know exactly how you feel."
But you never will, at least not for real.
You'll never have the pain I hide deep within me.
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Tell me how I'm feeling
Tell me what I dream
Tell me I'm just acting
Tell me how I seem
Tell me who I hate
Tell me who I like
Tell me how I rate
Tell me you are right
tell me how I look
Read me like a book
Then I'll tell you something
Although I know you won't agree
Only I know what I'm thinking
Because only I am me.

My god I hate school....I would drop out if it didnt mean SOOOOOOO much to my mom.

Today is Chae's B-day......yay! She is 17 now- One more year and she will be an adult.....dont you think its stupid how people are considered adults at the age of 18....but you have to be 21 for alcohol and 19 to buy smokes???  I DO!!

HMMMM...........

well- I think Im ( Read more... )