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I remember how to do this
I can’t seem to get the words of my stupid counselor out of my head: you sound paranoid.
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I have a dream
I find myself in the dark in the middle of the night. I'm listening to Cat's voice clips. It's during these quiet moments that I allow myself to feel my feelings. I really want a happy ending. I want a family. I don't know what to do to get what I dream about.
I want : a greater Swiss mountain dog, a rag doll cat, a wife, kids, a house that is warm ( Read more... ) -
I'm fine being Gay
I'm tired of trying to be someone I'm not. I won't ever date men again.
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Rob is coming over tonight
I didn't think I would hear back from him after telling him I had a stroke. He's going to come over though. He's so handsome and he has blue eyes. I hope it goes well.... To be continued:
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I compare everyone to Cat.
I'm listening to pages won't turn playlist. I'm talking to this girl Linda and I compare eyes and personalities. I'm tired of wanting someone who never thinks of me. Why is it that I feel like I'm in hell.
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My first Mother's Day of Anjali
I feel so loved and so proud to have another daughter. When I adopt her she will be Addison Anjali Sinha Brandenburg.
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I need sleep and to get over this cold.
So we have decided that Anjali will be adopted and her name will be :
Addison Anjali Sinha Brandenburg
I'm so thrilled to have another daughter. I'm proud of her.
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Trying to recreate the magic
I spent the day editing 4 chapters and then I watched Grey's Anatomy. I'm trying to catch up on what I missed during the stroke. When the episodes were over I missed Cat. I remembered how Cat and I would talk about the show when it was over. I tried to talk to Kenzie about it but it wasn't the same.
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I'm thinking about pages won't turn.
I need to edit but something hurts in my chest every time I read it. I want to forget or move on but I'm fucking stuck. It feels like hell. I'm tired of wanting something I clearly can't have.
So there's this guy and he's a doctor. I wish I could meet a vet. He's handsome.
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