"Amanda and Kris do Hollywood,California, 2009"

i kissed my male best friend, and i liked it.

with snowflakes on my tongue, you bring out the best in me.

This is the last entry I am making in this journal, ever. I am going to Tumblr. www.amandamaria.tumblr.com, ill be posting alot in it, so be sure to follow. Theres just alot I need to leave behind right now and this journal goes way back ( Read more... )

i dont know what im going to do anymore.

I want to fall in love. I want complete "Icantgetenoughofyouwanttoripyourclothesoff" love. I want that feeling of seeing someone walk into a room and just having your heart start pounding so hard you can hear it from the outside. I want to feel content. Fall and Winter always makes me like this. But I want to be in love. I have never been IN it, ( Read more... )

The album leaked, I'm not going to lie, I downloaded it. All I wanted to do was here heaven because it was an instrumental. I got chills when I listened to it, and i think my eyes got watery? It is so pretty. Its like the perfect "dreamscape" song. Im so lame.

I'm not going to lie. I'm avoiding people. This is the first entry I've written since the 4th of July at Rachels house in NH. Basically. All I'm saying is this, I am guilt written. Completely and entirely, dont tell me not to be, because I am. I replay it like a movie, flipping between the script. I am so sorry for everything, how this all turned ( Read more... )

I'm drunk
its the 4th of july
im at rachels
and i am going to start writing in this again.
k bye!

new york has driven me crazy.
its beautiful.
its raining.
its cold.
wheres the snow?
flying back to florida tomorrow.
its my birthday.
i love bcbg's.
and actual MAC retail shops.
i never want to leave here.

Byebye Lexington

when i found out that i have a GPA that could get me into UCF, UM, FSU, or UNF...I freaked.
Then I remembered...I havent taken my SATs.
Or ACTs.
And i REALLY dont want to.

But i REALLY want to go to a university....

i dont know.

god damn