here you go mallory. i loff you <3

no more journal. sid call me. i need you. lianne, im sorry. i love you. a lot.

i poured myself a glass of vodka and i soaked in the bathtub. american football played and the steam rose off of me. i layed there emotionless thinking of absolutely nothing. my throat burned. and a happy birthday to you. a very happy birthday to you. early one at that. you are truly amazing ( Read more... )

right now i am off. while my parents tell me to study i will. ill study every single word on that bottle of vodka. ill study the way it makes my throat burn as i swallow it and i will study the way you think ive changed. i love you. sweet vodka. i love you.

i think i dislike myself right now more than i ever have. i think my self confidence is dropping to an all time low and its horrible. i wish i could look at you all and know what you thought of me. i wish i could look at you all and not care what you thought of me. but i do. i wish i knew you thought i was pretty. i wish i knew i was pretty. but im ( Read more... )

if i were a month, i'd be: june ( Read more... )

the heat also reminds me of the day i found out i was coming here. when my life fell apart. and no one would drive me to your house to put the letter in your mail box. so i walked there. and no one knew where i was. and i took extra long walking down the street. so i could remember what it smelled like what my tears tasted like. how my sunburn ( Read more... )

im kinda sad right now. my lover, corey, isnt talking to me. yesterday was so great until he got mad at me for telling everyone i call him corwhore in bed. kyle yelled at him for not talking to me and then i guess it was okay for awhile. we looked out my window at the scenary for a bit then took a few pictures. i dont know, maybe he felt left out. ( Read more... )

its 9:10. i went to sleep 5 hours ago. i usually sleep for 12 or 13 hours on weekend. i woke up and couldnt fall back asleep so i went and got a snackpack. it wasnt as good as it should have been ( Read more... )

congratulations. you just runined your night. while your friends are out back laughing and having a good time youre sitting at the computer. and five minutes ago you were taking more amphedamines. and ten minutes ago you were sliding the razor across your fuckin white wrist. and then there was the scissors. and then the scarlet color. but you just ( Read more... )