SOOOOOOOOO where to begin? My birthday is in 2 weeks, and im so pumped! FYI im like a little kid when it comes to my birthday, and i always have been. Once Feb 13th comes around, I start to realize its so soon, and i get so excited! I realized that I was very childish about my birthday when my 7 year old cousin said to me last week "MY BIRTHDAY IS ( Read more... )

Happy Valentines Day. My day consisted of Homework, listening to music and going to school.....oh and making mollie dinner because she has no heat in her house :( My brother and I decided we want to get a house next year which is cool, and besides that, we're just hanging...! PEACE IN THE MIDDLE

So that is a recap of what has been going on in my love life, this amazing guy who has been treating me great. Even though i am back at school I have seen him twice, I have gone home and he has visited me, and he told me this morning he wants to visit me next weekend which is amazing news. I guess it was amazing news untill Maura called me ( Read more... )

So i guess I haven't updated in a reallll long time. I wrote this about a month ago *jan 7th, 2005* when i couldn't update to online ( Read more... )

I miss brendan, alot. Yesterday was his birthday, and he would have turned 21. I remember his birthday when we were dating, it was really special. Anyway, His parents haad a burial ceremony for him. He was cremated, and then last october 28, someof his ashes were spread in the ocean, on the shore of capecod. This year, the rest of his ashes ( Read more... )

Where is the sympathy? I see none. If one of my friends, from home or from school is upset, I would go out of my way to help them, but I have recieved none of that. When im upset at school my roommates and friends just leave me alone, and let me work this out on my own, where clearly i need a hug, a friend, something.... Its like everyone can ( Read more... )

My weekend with Tage was a good one, I really enjoyed being with him all weekend and stuff. I am so in love with him, and being with him makes me realize that i do miss him, and how much I hate our long distance relationship because i wish i was with him ALOT more. I see him for a week or weekend every 2 months about... That is so hard because ( Read more... )

I had a mental breakdown today, I dont know why, my boyfriend is confused, my roomates are confused, my mother thinks something went wrong, my bestfriend doesn't know why, i dont know why. All i know is that i cried, all day, for no reason. For stress, yes, for missing tage yes, for alot of school work, yes...but for a real reason? no.

After reading Caras journal today, I realized oh shit my dreams are so crazy. I haven't slept well lately. Its all the drinking i've been doing, mixed with all the work, and missing Tage and the rethinking WhAT THE FUCK AM I DOING ( Read more... )

My email from Tage today said "Blah, i have to go", I didn't really understand why he emailed me in the first place, but i guess his intentions meant well. I am gaining weight like crazy. Ok, i am still skinny, i am not some oversized monster, but seriousally, in the last 2 months i have gained like 5 to 7 lbs. Even rider said i gained a few pounds ( Read more... )