god dammit! you selfish, egotistic person! i hate it when you act like this! so fucking what i broke down? so what, so what, SO WHAT?!!! this is about ME and finding MY OWN self worth... not you dictating it to me. so i feel like i'm an average person..... how does that in any way reflect upon you? huh? the world does not revolve around you!!! just ( Read more... )

i got the job! yay! i start the minute i get my work permit. WOOT! my first legit job! haha.... what so funny is that i told my friend Rico about the interview and i put in a good word for him and my new boss wants to interview him too! man he's so happy now.... i am too cuz i'll know someone there if he gets it. plus now Mikie changed her mind and ( Read more... )

okie dokie so.... it's been a looooooooooooooooong time since i've posted on here. i converted to myspace, the sin of all sins!!! forgive me livejournal for i have sinned... it's been almost three months since my last confession! haha... actually the last entry was more of a rant but w/e. oh and as a follow-up to that, Cat wrote me this whole long ( Read more... )

you know what.... no one reads this journal anyway so i'm gonna type whatever the fuck i want!! so get ready cuz i'm about to let it all out ( Read more... )

how is it that when i finally get out of my "i hate me i want to die" period that everyone else is hating life? 3 of my friends have attempted suicide just this week.... 3 in a week and it's only wednesday!! i wish i could tell you all how much i luv you and how much you all mean to me.... it just never seems to come out right tho... i really do ( Read more... )

ok so NCCJ was great... i met sooooo many ppl. i'm definitely going to go back next time as a YL (youth leader)... so many ppl met someone up at camp that they like now... it's crazy. i mean really... it wasnt supposed to be THAT kind of human relations camp! but i shouldnt talk cuz i met someone there too that i like... no names... but it's not ( Read more... )

YaY!!! i finally got my hair the kind of red i wanted it to be!! last time you couldnt even tell i colored it at all... but this time i got a darker color and i luv it!! ^_^ hmmmm .... happy Nessa!! oh and mommy said she'd take me to Best Buy so i can finally use my gift card to get the 3DG cd!! *sigh* what a happy ending to a very odd week ( Read more... )

let's play a game.... it's called guess how Nessa feels today! LoL.... i actually feel pretty good today. i had been having some really bad dreams lately but i didnt have any last nite. yay! and they were the really bad kind too where you wake up in the nite crying or screaming... *shivers ( Read more... )

There are things that used to make me smile ( Read more... )

hey Jojo... fuck you! seriously... this time you really went too far. and dont even try to play it against me and say i'm jealous of Azzy... i'm pissed at you not her cuz of u saying all that bullshit about how we're friends. well some friend you are... you weren't even gonna tell me you got with Azzy were you... nice job Jojo... and dont even lie ( Read more... )