I have this gut feeling that something horrible is going to happen. I know that usually when you feel that way that nothing is actually going to happen, but the mere fact that you have that feeling may cause you to sabotage everything you love in life ( Read more... )

I am so exhausted. Everything in me is just so tired and I don't want to do anything anymore. Literally. I just want to lie on my couch all day and only get up to get soda or cigarettes ( Read more... )

Hot flashes + summer heat = No Bueno ( Read more... )

I can feel it ( Read more... )

So I had to go for an emergency visit to my doctor today. Lots of pain, too much pain. It hurt to stand, it hurt to sit, it hurt to walk, sleep, etc. Basically, if I was doing or trying to do something, it hurt like a bitch. About two months ago they told me that they would not prescribe painkillers for me. Today they changed their mind, after ( Read more... )

So, basically, I have been in a lot of pain lately ( Read more... )

has been alright. I don't know. I just don't feel here. Almost like I just don't exist. What is there of me anymore anyways? not much ( Read more... )

You would think that if all day your husband is sweet to you through emails, he would be sweet when he gets home ( Read more... )

In about 2 1/2 hours I'll have gone 48 hours without smoking. I've been doing alright, but I'm a little grumpy.
James gave me an itunes giftcard he got for xmas from his work, so I have downloaded stupid songs from years ago to cheer myself up. So, I'm feeling better now.

1. I'm a fucking fat ass tub of lard ( Read more... )