I woke last night

just before sun rise

Your name on my lips

My eyes fluttered open

slow and dazed

searching

My breath hitched

heart pounding fast

I couldn't see you

couldn't hear you

or feel you near

As tears welled

I tried to calm myself

struggled to fight myself

I know you are there

all be it in my heart

I long to feel your arms around me

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Our mommy loves us cause we are dead,
but soon we will start to haunt her head.
We will turn her dreams and make her sad,
make her suffer for all the things that she did bad.

Lost and alone ( Read more... )

Jesse when I knew him well once introduced me to a song about toast welll I found a video now follow the link and yell about toast with me and love fun memories...
http://youtube.com/watch?v=g41tUinKGZ8

Well here it is the update every one has so longed for..... um yeah blah

One who will speak only lies ( Read more... )

I have to sit here now and argue with myself about my last journal entry.Perhaps my stronger side has decided to fight on. Today it was put to me in question, "Why give up what keeps you going?" This is a valid point, there have been times that the only thing keeping me going was that rebellious nature that told me, "You cant be like others and ( Read more... )

I am sad to say another peice of me is dieing and that there is nothing I can do about it, so I will let it die away and let something new come forth from the ashes, wiether it be something real or another mask and another lie. Life throws one to many curve balls our way and all we can do is sit by and watch it happen. My mother once told my to ( Read more... )

The world keeps on turning and spining me round ( Read more... )

Couldn't sleep, so I went down walking ( Read more... )