so I'm sitting here at work, it's early and this is typically when I have the time to actually sit down and think. maybe it's because it's so quiet in here. all that is around me really is the soft, almost calming, humming of these printers.

this year I'm really going to try and better myself. when people asked me what I wanted for christmas I told ( Read more... )

Like a flash I jumped from the confides of the warm bed that held me the night before. There was a band of masquerade monkeys invading Chicago. My people need me. I'm off, racing through streets, and the occasional sidewalk, leaving behind me only smoke. Out of breath I reach my destination, fully prepared to take down my opponents, only to find ( Read more... )

Things came to a screeching halt as I realized that I was staring face to face with my reaility. Staring. Images distorted and crowded.  My everything. I do it for you. I do it because of you. I do it because you are out of reach. I do it because I can't have you. I do it to replace you. Spiraling quandry.

Have you ever tried to have a conversation while staring into the back of your eyelids? Everything is going great until the sound of your key board is suddenly drowned out by the constant dripping of a pipe somewhere. Focus at the task at hand. Drip. You wonder if this is all worth it because all you need to do is open your eyes and seek out the ( Read more... )

do you think god likes poptarts? I mean technically he is involved seeing as how he "created" the man (or was it woman, eh who cares) who invented the poptart. I suppose it doesn't really matter wether or not god likes poptarts, certainly won't be a question on jeopardy. I was just thinking it would be a great conversation starter. you know, so ( Read more... )

I've been preparing for this for years now but as the day gets closer I come to the realization that I'm not ready for this at all. this is going to flip my world upside down and I don't know how well I can keep together.

My birthday is coming up next week and because it's so close to finals and such I'm forced to stay down here in Muncie. I don't want to be here. I want to go home and spend my birthday with friends and family...you know people I care about. But I have to stay here and celebrate my birthday by myself. My parents are going to try and come down but ( Read more... )

is it all worth it? 
are all these sacrifices really for the best?
will everything turn out okay in the end?

huge questions.... no answers....

i'm living in a house with a freind of mine. i'm walking home, se's on her way out. she's dresses like marilyn monroe (don't ask) we start talking, she decides to come back to the house with me. we are standing outside and a van keeps driving past. after three passes the van stops and a guy gets out. asks us for directions or something. we get ( Read more... )

that conversation was long over due. i'm glad we understand eachother.